It irks me

It irks me when people are trying to sound angelic when they're not.
It irks me when people are trying to act like they're innocent and all when they're obviously not.
It irks me when people are looking down at others when they themselves are nowhere near good.
It irks me when people are saying about other people when they're doing the same thing too anyway. They're at the ones at wrong too so what the hell with saying bad things about other people?

Hypocrites. They're everywhere.

Okay. I should stop now before I start becoming one of those people. I admit I myself is no better than other people. I'm trying my very best to become a better person than I am now. InsyaAllah. :) Minta-minta saya dijauhkan dari golongan sebegitu. Nauzubillah min zalik.

Ps. Masih mencari-cari sesuatu. Semoga saya menemuinya. :)

Coz I'm lazy~

Been neglecting this blog for ages. Honestly, I have nothing interesting to blog about. Hari-hari mengadap benda sama je. Haha.. Just finished my elective posting at the Renal-Hypertension division of Internal Medicine Department. I gotta say, I learned a lot from my elective posting. We mainly focused on Hypertension. Do you know there are so many guidelines for the management of hypertension. The guideline that has always been mentioned excessively is The Seventh Report of the Joint National Committee on Prevention, Detection,
Evaluation, and Treatment of High Blood Pressure (JNC 7) but there are several others such as the ones released by the National Institute for Health and Clinical Excellence (NICE), European Society of Hypertension (ESH), and Canadian Hypertension Education Program (CHEP).

Next week, I'm gonna enter the last posting of my final year, SURGERY. Seriously, tak sabar nak habiskan everything here then be back home for good. Back to my beloved family and friends in Malaysia. ^__^ But before that, I'm gonna have to go through the very last obstacle for achieving my medical degree, the Comprehensive exam and integrated OSCE. T__T My examiners for my comprehensive exam will be from Pediatrics and Neurology departments. I am so dead. Pediatrics was my first posting for final year and I had Neurology during my 5th year. How am I supposed to remember the things I've learned? o__O Need to brush up my knowledge a bit since their questions are gonna be so unpredictable. I mean, they can ask anything. ANYTHING.

So yeah. There's no score for the exam. It's either you pass or fail. If you fail, that means you're gonna have to re-sit for remedial. -__-" Hope I don't have to! Bismillahirrahmanirahim..

Yuk studyyyy! Macam orang tu cakap, "Mira kan kiasu". Heh~

We're not Gods.

Chi-ku-ngu-nya.

Just in case you people find it difficult to pronounce it. Sila menggunakan sebutan baku ye. Anyway, Chikungunya is an insect-borne virus that is transmitted to humans by Aedes mosquitoes. Yep, Aedes tidak hanya membawa penyakit demam Dengue tetapi juga Chikungunya (cuba sebut Chikungunya banyak-banyak kali dan laju-laju. Boleh jadi tongue twister dowh~ :p) Dengue dan Chikungunya ni boleh dikatakan hampir serupa gejalanya sebab dua-dua adalah viral infection.

Okay, I'm not gonna blab what Chikungunya is all about. Rasanya lebih banyak medical sources yang lebih valid di luar sana untuk anda baca. :) Even one of the patients that I met in the clinic read BBC Health yawww~ Mantaps!

We had mini CEX with the doctor in-charge at the clinic today. She's a GP, I think. Or family medicine specialist? Idk. Socializing - I'm not good at that. Jumpa satu patient ni. Seriously sangat educated. He knows everything about his condition, from A to Z. Pastu dia ada cakap dia pernah kena Chikungunya dulu. The first thing that blurted out from the doctor's mouth was,

Dr. X: Di rumah banyak tikus pak?
Pak Y: Iya, banyak sekali...*awkward silence*
            .............. eh, tikus? bukannya nyamuk ya?
Dr. X: Iya, sama aja pak. Bisa aja tertular.
Pak Y: *kebingungan, poker face*

 Okay, tak tau nak gelak atau apa. Entah kenapa saya pulak yang rasa malu time tu. The first thing that came to my mind was, "doctor ni cakap pasal leptospirosis ke"? Obviously, the patient was not stupid and obviously, the doctor did clearly aware of the topic that the patient was talking about coz she repeated the word "Chikungunya" herself before asking that ridiculous question.

Saya bukan nak mengutuk ke apa. Yes, we are from the medical team. We thought we knew everything. Of course we do know more than what the patients know. Enam tahun bergelumangan kat medical school yaw~ But we're only humans. We make mistakes. Tapi kalau dah salah tu, lebih baik mengaku je. Tak yah nak tunjuk pandai. Coz in the end, if we ended up giving false information to the patient, it might be harmful to them. Saya sangat respek kat doktor yang mengaku "secara jujurnya saya belum pernah baca/ saya tidak tahu". We don't have to pretend like we know everything. Be humble. Kalau tak tau, cakap je tak tau. Kita cari maklumat lepas tu sampaikanlah maklumat yang benar kepada patient kita. Senang je kan? ;)

Ingatlah medical ethics yang kita pernah belajar dulu.
First, do no harm. 

Ps. Tapi agak ridiculous kalau doctor tak tau cara menular Chikungunya tu.
Pps. The doctor was from a private clinic. Not from the national hospital where I have my clinical years at. The doctors there semua sangat pandai okay. :)

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Worst birthday ever

I blew up yesterday. You see, the cumulative effect of having to wait for YOU irresponsible people has done its damage. Yes, I might laughed it off for the past weeks but my patience has reached its limit. NEVER in my life I had such problems with my groupmates. I said, NEVER. Being late for once in awhile is totally acceptable but for every single freaking time is definitely NOT OKAY. How casual of you to ask me to WAIT for you yesterday after what you had done for the past few weeks. Aku bukan orang gaji kau nak tunggu setiap masa. Kau ingat masa aku tak berharga? Kau ingat?

The thing that upset me the most was when you asked us to do this and that but YOU have NEVER made it on time. "Cakap tak serupa bikin", as the Malay saying goes (I think? Does such saying formally exists in the dictionary? Haha.. Whatever!) Susah sangat ke kau nak tepati masa, tepati janji? Selama kau hidup, kau selalu break promises ke? Kasihan sungguh.

After being with you guys, all I can say is that you don't freaking have any remorse! If you do, you would have apologised. Most importantly, you would have tried to avoid being late ever again. Oh well, who am I kidding.  I guess you have never felt remorse before and I feel sorry for you.

Congratulations.

You've just made me realise how lucky I am to have my daddy and "him". They're my most perfects guys in the whole world.

One week to go!

It's been ages since I posted an entry here. My life has been boring and I have the same routine every day so basically there's nothing to be blogged about.

Wait, then why the heck am I even here? LMAO.

Seriously I can't wait for Internal Medicine to be over.

No, Mira! It will never be over for you. This is a life-long learning process so deal with it.

Ps. Gilakah aku bercakap sorang-sorang camni? Hoho~

Life is..