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Sunday, December 25, 2011

I don't wanna talk about it cause I'm in love with you~



I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

The 12 types of med students


Sometimes, I can be "painfully enthusiastic". But of most of the time, I'm a "sensitive soul" but definitely not to the extend of giving up my properties. :p

LOL at the last one. Are they trying to say all medical students are insane? Oh well, maybe we are. There were times where I had doubt about choosing doctor as my lifetime career. You know, you gotta study for at least 5-6 years long and the journey doesn't end there. You still have to go for horsemanship for a minimum of 2 years long and serve the government for another 8 years including the 3 compulsory years? (I'm a JPA scholar holder so that explains it all).

This is madness, I tell ya.

But honestly, I can't imagine myself doing other things. Despite the workloads, I do enjoy being in a medical school. I love what I'm doing right now. The working part? The real life? I'll just think about it later. Teehee~ :P

Sunday, December 11, 2011

I sprained my ankle

Yep, saya tahu saya sangatlah careless. Encik Sumi cakap saya selalu sangat jatuh. It's either saya memang tak berhati-hati or saya obese so senang hilang balance. Oopss. It hurts so bad that I swear I could hear bone-cracking sound. Alhamdulillah, bila X-ray, nothing major happened actually. The doctor said it was merely a hematoma at the right ankle joint region. Bengkak still tak kecik-kecik. Takut. :(

Swelling of the right ankle joint

Doctor dah bandage. Tu pun saya yang mintak isk.

One day after the incident. Still ada hematoma.
Rumah Sakit MH Thamrin Salemba hampeh sesangat. Service sangatlah teruk. My friends helped me to do all the administrative stuff. And sampaikan nak ambil wheelchair pun kena ambil sendiri. WTF. It's a private hospital. Nurse yang takde kerja selamba je suruh pegi ambil. Sebab takde koas la tu. Kalau RSCM, kerja-kerja camtu, koas la. Jadi kuli. Sobs~ Cepatlah sembuh. Kalau tak, camne nak sambut baby kat Ruang Bersalin lagi, ye tak? T___T


Ps. Turns out that doctor kat emergency tu adalah resident kat RSCM. Please please forget my face and name. Malu.
Pps. Koas = medical student yang sedang clinical posting kat hospital.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

I love my desktop


Currently using Rainmeter for customizing my desktop. Thanks to Adlan for the tips. Check it out here. ;)

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Microorganism

mi·cro·or·gan·ism
n.
An organism of microscopic or submicroscopic size, especially a bacterium or protozoan.
Microorganism
An organism (life form) that is too small to be seen with the naked eye.

 That's exactly how I feel whenever I hang around with my groupmates. They're loud, outspoken, dominant, and smart whereas I'm quiet most of the time. It's either they're too smart or I'm just less smart.I wouldn't want to call myself stupid thankyouverymuch. Setiap yang diungkapkan boleh jadi sebagai doa so yeah, no way.

Ps. 3.87 and 3.70 is a huge difference. No?

Saturday, November 26, 2011

I feel bad



And suddenly my dad BBMed me telling me not to restrict my food intake. He said he was gonna give me an iPad 2 as a graduation present. He said if I can't wait, he'll send some money over. OMG. What should I dooooo? Otokke? Nak tarik balik whatever I tweeted boleh tak? Wuuuuu~

Saya budak scholar JPA and I've been trying my best not to ask money from my parents. My monthly allowance is entirely from JPA. Although some might see me as a spoiled kid, NO, I AM NOT. I don't go around asking my parents to buy me this and that. They wanted to buy me stuffs and most of the time, I felt bad about it.

Jual notebook boleh tak? Since I bought it with my allowance money so it's considered my property and I can do whatever I want with it, right? :p

Ps. Oh, jual notebook still ada laptop kesayangan so not to worry. It's a 2-year-old laptop dan tak pernah buat problem okay. ASUS rocks! Samsung sucks. Just saying. xD

Friday, November 11, 2011

It's either they're illiterate or blind


It find it really annoying when people do not spell my name correctly when I have clearly written my name on the required forms. Here's an example. Tell me, am I stupid enough to write my name WRONGLY? And there's a huge difference between "Hazizan" and "Azizah". Gahhhh. Come on! It's not even difficult to spell it out RIGHT!

/iz pissed off

Ps. Oh, it's 11/11/11 today and 2PM is right here in Jakarta and I can't even go to their concert. /screamsssssssssss T___T

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Capek

Capek = exhausted / letih / penat dan seangkatan dengannya.

Semalam ada night duty kat IGD Kebidanan (IGD = instalasi gawat darurat / emergency unit). Patient tak banyak but I did learn something so it was all good. Managed to witness a sharp curettage for abortion. The next time, I'll be the one doing it, I hope! The doctor in charge let me performing vaginal touché and bimanual examination. It was an entirely different feeling! Selalu buat kat patung je hehehe~

Sadly, I still haven't got the chance to help deliver a baby! Oh well, it's only my first night duty, 2nd week of ObsGyn.

Oh, did I mention kiasu-ism is highly infectious? I've been infected. =P

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Salam Aidiladha


I miss my ayah and mama so much!

Mereka sekarang berada di Tanah Suci Mekah. Semoga Allah sentiasa melindungi mereka sepanjang menjalankan ibadah Haji. Amin~ :')

Saturday, November 5, 2011

I've been busy

Extremely busy. Or lazy if I happen to have free time. Haha.. The first week of Obgyn has been super tiring and mind-cramping. In three days, I repeat, THREE DAYS, we were expected to remember the basics and skills for the first OSCE and written exam. I swore I almost blew up. It was such a stressful week for me. There were 15 stations for medical skills which included all those important gynaecologic examinations, assisting normal labour, counselings, curretage, manual vacuum aspiration in abortion, etc~ Guess what, on the very same day, I had to sit for a written exam too!

Post-OSCE! In the lecture hall, while waiting for the consultant doctor!

Can't you see my happy face? xD

Hardworking students :p
Weeks ahead are gonna be so tiring but I bet it's gonna be hella fun! I shall wait for the moment where I may get to assist baby delivery FOR REAL! Woot woot!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Weird people

I got bored (though I was supposed to start studying ObsGyn) and so I rewatched Ryan Higa's videos on Youtube. I could never get tired of his vids like.. seriously? Hehe~ There was this one video where he ranted on Weird People.

"A world without weird people is like vanilla ice cream without the sprinkles..- Ryan Higa"
 I'm weird and I'm proud to be one. I bring sprinkles to vanilla ice cream yawww! =p

Weirdos acting weird lol~ I love how my mom managed to squeeze in between us. =p Yes, my little sister was wearing my convocation robe! Hahaha..
Ps. Starting my ObsGyn posting tomorrow. OSCE and MCQ on Thursday. DAYYUM HOW MANY DAYS LEFT, TELL ME?
Pps. Does Ryan Higa really have ADHD?

Saturday, October 29, 2011

That's not how you do it..

Previously, there was this blogger who commented on my shoutbox. Saying how cute my blog is yadda yadda yadda. As a token of appreciation (takbleh blahhh ahh ayat), I paid a visit to her blog, thanking her for liking my blog. But then, I realised something was wrong with all the other comments on her shoutbox. Everyone else was thanking her for saying how "cute" their blogs were. Out of curiosity, I went to their blogs (homaigawddd takde keje dah ke Mira? -__-"). I found out that this particular blogger actually left the exact same message on everyone else's shoutbox.

Babe, that's not how you gain followers. I mean, it might actually work if you wanted to increase your blog traffic but gaining loyal readers? I don't think so. I sorta got hurt actually. Haha.. Perasan je ada orang suka kat blog saya yang sememeh ni. -__-" I normally don't comment but I do have exceptions eg. interesting posts, my friends' blogs, etc. Saya sukaaa blogwalking tapi jarang sekali meningggalkan jejak. Sebab tu blog ni cam rumah kosong jek. Whatever. I just don't care. This blog is random and I don't want to be restricted to writing certain stuff only just to ensure people keep reading my blog. I don't write for others. I write for myself.

Okay, gila selfish bunyi dia and self-centered.  Hahaha..

Lagi satu, don't you just loveeeeee when somebody says,

"I dah follow you. Follow me back yea!"

Nak lempang? Korang ingat ada ke orang nak follow kalau camtu? Kalau ada, saya tataulah kan. =P Then, the next second you know, that person already unfollowed your blog sebab tak dilayan. Whattt~? -__-"

Ps. Terkasar pulak. Ampun ye. =p

Friday, October 28, 2011

Goodbye Paediatrics, Hello ObsGyn!

Seperti biasa, before exam berkobar-kobar nak update blog. Bila habis je exam, malas gila nak sentuh blog sebab dapat buat benda lain yang lagi best atau sekadar bermalas-malasan tahap cipan. Hehe.. =P So today marked the end of paediatrics posting! Tak sangka 9 minggu berlalu rasa macam sekejap je. Like, seriously! I didn't feel anything. Time flew way too fast. Tau-tau je dah grad. Pastu balik Malaysia for good chewah! Can't freaking wait for that moment! ^__^

Overall, Paediatrics is exciting and fun! I love it. Really. Previously, my view towards Paeds was like...blearghhh. To be honest, I had once dreamt of becoming a Paedatrician and it was all because of this one Paeds doctor whom I was very fond of. When I was a kid, I always had to go and meet him due to my severe asthma condition. He treated me so well that I kinda idolized him (mind you, I was only 6 back then!). Pastu bila dah besaq sikit, rasa cam tak suka budak-budak so I swore I didn't want to become a Paediatrician. But who knows suddenly suka Paeds plak. Kids...they're so pure and innocent! They don't lie. They cry, they tell us the truth when they are hurt or in pain. But adults? They lie most of the time. Geriatric patients? They complain way too much and get easily irritated. You know what I'm saying?

Andddd.. they're all so cuteeeeee! Oh I'm in love!

During one of my night duties! There were two Caesarean sections and four normal deliveries! (eh, ni bukan delivery Mekdi or KFC kay. =P)
 Pastu, yang ni paling precious! Baby pipi labuh!!!

So cute right? Rasa cam nak cubit, gigit arghhhh
I'm seriously gonna miss Paediatrics. Walaupun patient exam and written exam susah gilaaaaa, tapi Paeds memang best! :D Ohhh my patient exam went well I think. The doctors (yep, there were two consultant doctors examining me at the same time) were satisfied with me. I think la. Hahahha.. Whatever. Hoepfully lulus dengan warna terbang la. Oh berangan lalala~

My next posting is gonna be *drumrolls* Obstetrics & Gynecology! Dunno what to expect but from what I can see, it's gonna be a lot more tiring compared to Paeds. Tidur konfem tak cukup beb! So, tidurlah dengan banyak sebelum posting bermula yeahhhh!

Fuuhhhh say whattttt~! Nampak tak buku merah tu? Baru ilmu kebidanan. Belum lagi ilmu kandungan tauuu. Beza dia kebidanan dengan kandungan? Tatau la lalala.

Monday, October 24, 2011

I'm dying

STUDYING =
STUDENT + DYING

Get it? T___T

Ps. Having patient exam tomorrow at 6am-12pm. Wish me luck! Dear consultants and patient, please be good to me. (:

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Thanks love


 Thanks for cheering me up yesterday. I was down all day so I couldn't really concentrate on my revision. Now that you've given me the strength to continue what I'm doing, I shall strive for the best and never give up. Thanks love

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Black clouds over my head

Yet again! When will this ever end? :(
Had my Paediatrics end-posting written exam yesterday and I think I did pretty bad. The questions were not repeated from the past years' and most of them, I would say..ambiguous? It's like all of the answers are correct but choosing the most appropriate one is a pain in the ass. And excuse mehhh, answering all 80 questions within 80 minutes is a challenge coz the questions were very long and for every 3-4 questions, there were case illustrations. So I had to just skim the questions or else I wouldn't have time to answer the rest of the paper. The probability of me leaving out crucial info was BIG so I guess that's why I messed up so badly.

Before the exam itself, I cried my heart out. I was told that we had to wear long-sleeved white coat or else we wouldn't be allowed to sit for the exam. Stress lagi! Kenapa la Paeds ni so skema sangat? Grrr.. So I had to call my friends from ObGyn to borrow theirs. Nasib baik ada kawan. :') But pastu barulah perasan ada beberapa orang pakai the short-sleeved ones and the doctor did not say anything!! Haihhh. Penat-penat berlari all the way from IRJ to Gedung A tauuu. Maybe it was just me being paranoid. Haihhh. -___-"

Pastukan, there's this one Paeds resident whom I had my night duty with THREE WEEKS AGO. YEP. And she suddenly asked for me! So I called her up and asking what is going on. She wouldn't tell me the details and COMMANDED me to meet her on Monday at 9am. And I'm having my patient exam on Tuesday! Cukup-cukuplah dokter seksa diri saya nie! Masa jaga malam hari tu, tak cukup lagi ke? Bagging for 2 hours straight, ran up and down between the 1st and 2nd floor, went back and forth between the emergency unit and the pharmacy, etc, etc. Pastu tak cukup lagi I got scolded by the consultant and when it was clearly your fault?

SCREW YOU!

Ps. Untuk adik-adik yang belum masuk clinical year, yep,clinical year is a living hell for us. I'm telling you the truth.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Have a Facebook?


Have a Facebook? Want to creep yourself out? Click here!

I'm telling you this is the scariest shit that I've ever seen. Well, I didn't actually watch it until the end. If only the guy looked less creepy, I would have watched it until the end. Grrrr~ Need someone to watch this together. Call me scaredy-cat all you want coz I am one! -___-"

Oh, let me know how it goes if you actually managed to go through the video till the very end. =p

Monday, October 17, 2011

The world is cruel

I bet most of you guys have seen this video and seriously, I find it very VERY disturbing. How can humankind be so heartless? Check out the video below.



Here's an excerpt from a news article:

A two-year-old toddler was run over by two vans and mortally wounded, after which 18 people passed her indifferently in south China's Guangdong Province.

Thanks to the 19th passer-by, a woman garbage collector who came to her aid about seven minutes after the first hit, the girl didn't die immediately in last Thursday's incident. But doctors said the girl died yesterday from severe brain injuries she had suffered in the accident.

Police have detained both drivers.

After the surveillance video of the incident was put online yesterday, many netizens condemned the 18 passers-by who could have helped the girl avoid the second accident. The case was the latest to bring home the question of whether people today are too cold-blooded to help, or whether it's smart to stay away from an accident to avoid the chance of being accused of responsibility by the victim.

The girl, identified by her parents as Yueyue, was knocked down by a van about 5:30pm last Thursday, when walking alone in a hardware wholesaling market in the city of Foshan. The car driver stopped for a while after the front wheel rolled over the girl. But he sped away soon and the rear wheel crushed her again.

A witness walked around the girl lying on the narrow street without stopping, the surveillance camera showed. Then a biker and a pedestrian passed her but ignored the girl struggling in a pool of blood.

A second van driver, who didn't see the girl, crushed her again and fled the scene. After the second hit, Yueyue became motionless.

Over the ensuing five minutes, 15 people passed her and each of them just took a look. None stopped to lend a hand.  Then finally, about seven minutes after the girl was hit by the first van, the trash collector came to her aid. She rushed to help her sit up but Yueyue was paralyzed. So the woman moved her from the middle of the street to the side. She yelled for help and Yueyue's mother came and held her daughter in her arms.

Yueyue was rushed to the General Hospital of Guangzhou Military Command, where she remained in the intensive care unit until she died yesterday afternoon.

"She couldn't breathe on her own," said Wen Qiang, deputy director of the ICU department.

The incident is the latest example of passers-by acting indifferently to victims injured in crimes. In this case, some blamed the parents for letting the girl walk on the street alone. More criticized the phenomenon of people passing by without helping, caused at least in part by previous extortion attempts from the injured and their families who have sometimes tried to blame the person helping.

She got run over by a van and a truck, TWICE! The first van ran over her twice (front and rear wheels) so that makes it three times?  Humankind much? I don't think so! May that poor little girl rest in peace..

Thursday, October 13, 2011

20 reasons why you should date a doctor


Ps. Just so you know, I'm not promoting myself anyway. I'm single but not available. *winks*
Pps. Some of the facts are not true actually. Just don't take this seriously. xD

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

5 Simple Rules for Happiness

1) Free your heart from hatred.
2) Free your mind from worries.
3) Live simply.
4) Give more.
5) Expect less.


I seriously need to hold onto these rules. Dark clouds have been hanging over my head for the past few weeks.


On a brighter note, I can't wait to see you love ! :)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Why Malaysian Gov Can't Retain Its Doctors

Found this on Facebook and apparently it was published on TheStar Online. Couldn't agree more. The article is soooo good, I swear! For doctors-to-be, read on!

Why we left and why we will continue to leave...
Posted by: MS Mohamad


I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.

After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty

"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.

Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).

I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.

I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done. When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:

"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"

Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:

“I’m busy with something else"

“My shift is already over"

...it was routine for me.

The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.

Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy. He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”

It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week. Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.

The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.

The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.

That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?

It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.

This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.
A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:

"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"

Another works in Brunei:

“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)

A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):

"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".

A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:

“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)

I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?

I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?

We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.

We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.
If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.

Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).

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It was a good reading, aye?

There's a reason why I hate nurses. They might have more experience than us, young doctors. Yes you do but we freaking studied for 6 years long before we can start working. But is it too much to ask to respect us as we respect them? We make more money? That's just bullshit if you wanna compare with the workload that we have to endure.

And oh yeah, one more thing. STOP BLOODY TELLING ME how I should be grateful for bla bla bla. When I said I was being treated like a slave during my night shifts at the hospital, I wasn't kidding. Doing all those stuff that was meant for others neither helps me nor the patients. I'm in my learning phase so I need to learn as much as I can so that I can save more lives. So don't tell me you understand what I'm going through coz you have NO BLOODY IDEA what it is like.

Ps. Emo again? Dang it.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Takut tapi..

Saya takut nak exam. Exam lagi dua minggu. Tapi saya malas sejak akhir-akhir ni. Pegang buku sekejap pastu the next thing I know, my head is already on the desk. Sindrom sebab dah banyak sangat study kah? Definitely not sebab saya rasa otak saya masih kosong macam tin kosong "klunk klunk klunk". Tak sangka dah masuk minggu ketujuh Paediatrics posting. Written exam on 22nd pastu patient exam on the 25th.

Huaaa.. Nak jawab exam pakai ape nanti? Otak saya? Luck? T____T

Study oi study Mira! Good grades tak datang dari langit macam tu je.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Menjengkelkan

Nak tau tak benda apa yang paling menjengkelkan kat dunia ni at this moment? (menjengkelkan = irritating)

KOSAN SAYA (my hostel)

Like seriously, tak habis-habis ada problem. Bayar bukannya murah tapi more than half of my monthly allowance kot. The monthly rent is the only sole reason that has been making me "papa kedana" for every end of the three-month period. I wanna move out but there's nowhere else I could go. Nak cari kos baru kat sini sangat susah. Kalau ada, sangat mahal sampai lebih dari Rp2 juta. Kalau murah, cam setinggan pulak tapi tak sanggup. T___T Percaya tak living cost kat Jakarta Pusat berkali-kali ganda lebih mahal dari KL tapi JPA tak mau naik-naik allowance pun walaupun dah buat proposal setebal buku Harrison's Internal Medicine. Okay, tipu je tapi seriously, daku terseksa. T___T

Masa mula-mula tinggal kat bilik lama banyak problem. Tiles bilik air kena bongkah sebab katanya air bilik air mengalir ke bilik bawah (likee ewww la kan tapi saya tak jorok so ok kot hahaha) I was the one who had to suffer. Kena mengemis bilik air kat bilik kawan or guna bilik air luar. It's very inconvenient sebab campur laki perempuan so kalau keluar dari bilik kena tutup dari atas sampai bawah. Gila kau pakai towel je? -__-" Fine lah kan. Pastu kena bongkah tiles bilik sebab kata bocor. Tapi benda paling bodoh, source of water dari mana pulak datang?? Don't think it's necessary. Pastu adalah few other problems macam kunci pintu rosak, ceiling bocor air hujan, internet cable cannot be connected yadda yadda.

Disebabkan tak tahan, saya mengambil keputusan untuk pindah kamar dengan harapan bilik tu tak semalang bilik lama. Tapi apakan daya, ternyata bilik baru ni lebih teruk. Tiles kena bongkah lagi? yep. History repeats itself. Gahhhhh~ Hari ni kena bongkah tiles bilik. Pe jadahnyaaaaa?

Nak kasi suggestion boleh? Apa kata just robohkan satu kosan je pastu buat yang baru? Ngeks betol.

Ps. Ya, ini entri emo lagi.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Hottesteu

My bf once told me not to flood my blog with Kpop stuff but I think I've been staying dormant for the past few weeks so I guess it wouldn't hurt to fangirl once in a while, right? Hehe.. ^__^ I still listen to Kpop songs though with less fangirl screaming these days. I consider myself to be a part of 2PM fandom, only Hottests and nothing else. If you happen to have an account on Wild2Day, you may find me here and I'm one of the graphic designers there.

Anyway, 2PM is coming to Jakarta this November and of course I won't be going even though I really wanted to. I don't know any Hottests staying in Jakarta. My friends, they're all somehow hardcore so-called "Coldests" (2PM anti-fans). The only Indonesian hottest that I know is currently in Yogyakarta. -__-" What's the point of going to a concert alone? *forever alone* And my parents? I don't think I could get their approval since I haven't been to any concerts throughout my 24 years of living in this world (25 if you count in intrauterine life haha xD).

My ultimate Kpop bias has always been 2PM's Kim Junsu aka Jun.K! He's a great singer and musician. He composes and writes his own songs and he recently got a chance to release a solo album! Check out the video below.



And oh to my only one, don't worry my dear. I'm forever your no 1 fan. ;)

Ps. Oh this is so random lol~

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

I {heart} you

My Bachelor of Medicine Convocation Day
 Kepada ayah dan mama tersayang, selamat berangkat ke Tanah Suci Mekah malam ini. Mira doakan semoga amalan ayah & mama diterima Allah SWT dan mendapat haji mabrur. Selamat sampai dan pulang. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan di sana. Amin~ Take care and I love you both, always~♥

Your beloved daughter,
Mira

Monday, October 3, 2011

Teddy and my feet


Bought this cute plush slippers back in Malaysia! Yes, I'm wearing Mr Bean's teddy on my feet! So comfy and I feel cute. Well, at least my feet do. Hahaha..

Ps. Yep, ini entri tanpa motif. Sekian. :p

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Sunday, October 2, 2011

Responsibility

I had the worst night shift in history evahhh~ Ended up alone all night. Was supposed to have the night shift at the emergency unit with this guy friend classmate of mine but he bailed on me! He left without words and it was before midnight! He came late and left early. Tell me, how the hell are you gonna be a good doctor if you keep acting this way? Skipping classes, coming to the hospital late, being rude to the senior doctors. Urgh.

And oh by the way, being a doctor doesn't mean you'll get more money. Yes, I know it's all about helping others but please, don't you think you should be more empathetic towards us as well? Instead of mocking us, try to understand the workload that we have everyday, will you?

Oh well, you'll never understand. You'll never will. I rest my case.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Premature ventricular contraction


You know who you are. Having to see the same people over and over again for 9 weeks is torturing. I know you feel the same way too. Come back to Jakarta soon please. IMYSM I could die~



Friday, September 30, 2011

Masih ada yang peduli

Hari ini jadual seperti biasa di Rumah Sakit Umum Pusat Nasional Dr. Cipto Mangunkusumo (okay, cuba sebut laju-laju muahaha!). Dari pukul 9-12pm, pergi Poli Umum Anak. Pasien pertama masuk. Seorang anak laki-laki berusia 8 tahun. Baju compang camping dan kotor. Dari segi luaran, nampak anak ni tak terurus. Tapi bila tengok orang yang bawa dia ke Poli, smart habis cam nak pegi kantor (pejabat).

Bila dah start anamnesis, ternyata orang yang bawa anak malang ini ialah orang yang lalu lalang di tepi jalan. 2 minggu yang lalu, anak tersebut telah terlindas mobil di kaki kirinya (kaki kiri kena gilis kereta). Dibawa ke rumah sakit yang namanya dirahsiakan dan di situ, dia hanya menerima perawatan luka SAHAJA. Okay, what in the world were they thinking?? (oh, terEnglish la pulokkk hahaha). Maksud saya, dari history-taking je dah tau anak ni kaki dia tergilis kereta. What do you expect? Takde pulak nak suspect fracture? Maybe they didn't even do any physical examination on this poor kid. Range of motion sangat terbatas. Dorsoflexion extension, eversion dan inversion tidak dapat dilakukan. Tapi mungkin orang yang langgar anak ini hanya nak cover expenses for basic treatment je. Yelah, radiology mahal dan tiada siapa nak tanggung. But supposedly, the culprit that ran over him should be the one to blame. He should have covered all the medical expenses needed.

Setelah menerima perawatan, anak ni pulang ke rumah seperti biasa. Turns out that both of his parents died a few years ago. Meninggal sebab Tuberculosis dan HIV. Sekarang tinggal bersama nenek dan dua orang adiknya. Adik kedua, takde cerita. Adik ketiga, dah kena HIV. Yang abangnya ni pulak, ada Tuberculosis paru. But the doctor decided not to give any treatment due to low compliance which the child will later on develop resistant TB.

Part yang paling sedih bila nenek anak ini cam buat endah tak endah. Luka di kaki masih belum sembuh dan sudah ada secondary infection. Bila disuruh cucunya jangan mengamen (minta derma di jalanan) sebelum kakinya sembuh, dia siap boleh cakap "Habis, kalau ga ngamen, emang saya mau makan apa?". Dammit nenek. Can't you see this poor child suffering?? He couldn't even walk properly for God's sake! Dari gaya percakapan, ternyata nenek ni hanya ingin dengan dunianya sendiri. She looks properly dressed tapi cucu-cucunya.... (fill in the blank yourself)

Saya sungguh terharu dengan wanita muda berbaju merah tadi. She was just an outsider (not a social worker, mind you!) who happened to meet the child by the roadside, limping. Waktu cuci luka tadi, walaupun sakit, anak tersebut tidak sedikit pun menangis. He was strong. Wanita tadi siap memeluk anak tersebut supaya menahan kesakitan. Sekali tengok, serious, rasa macam wanita tersebut menganggap itu anaknya. She hopes to get the child a foster home and has everything in planning. Sebelum ini, memang gadis inilah yang mengambil berat tentang apa yang berlaku kat anak ini dan adik-adiknya. I was amazed, mesmerized by the kindness shown. She's young and so pure at heart.

This reminds me to show more empathy to every patient that comes to see me. Tak kisahlah taraf ekonomi dia tapi even words could make a person happier. Lepas ni, kalau tengok ada anak yang mengamen, for sure akan ingat kat anak ni. :') To that unknown lady, thanks for the life lesson. I promise that I would be a good doctor one day. ^___^


Ps. Mannnn.. I should have written everything in English. So messed up!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Change

I wish I were as happy-go-lucky as she is. She's so carefree and cheerful even though she may look manic sometimes. I wish I were like that. For the past few months, I've been emotional. Always. Not sure if that's the type of person I really am but I wanna change for a better me. I got easily irritated/annoyed with the simplest thing. I seriously need to stop!

Be happy. Don't think too much unnecessarily. Life goes on, right? ;)

Jump for your life!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Climax

Keluh kesah di Facebook saya.
Laughing at other people's mistake doesn't make you any smarter. In fact, it's the other way around. Period.
Honestly, what did I do wrong? (╥﹏╥) I got hurt and was merely pointing out my opinion and then I got hurt again. If you're gonna continue being cold with me, then be it. I've nothing else to say.
 Saya tatau sejak bila saya jadi gangster, sejak bila saya jadi pemarah, sejak bila saya dah pandai bergaduh dengan budak lelaki. Yes, you heard me right. Cakap pun jarang, apatah lagi takde angin, takde pape nak gaduh pulak kan. Tapi saya gaduh pakai silent treatment, secara pasif je. Takde kot nak bertekak mulut sebab sudah pasti berguguran air mata muahaha~

Dia suruh saya check perangai saya sendiri sebelum nak mengata orang sebab nobody's perfect. Saya tak mengata okay. Uhhhh~ Benci. I know it's a DARN TRUE FACT that nobody's perfect. I don't need to be reminded especially by someone like you. The thing that you did, that horrible thing? Yes, I know everything. So, if you don't like me, fine! I don't like you either. Let's just ignore each others existence, shall we? Hearing your voice annoys the crap outta me.

Ya, ini entri emo. Sekian.

Ps. Saya sangat busy nowadays. Sempat blogwalking sekejap je. T___T

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Back in Jakarta

I was in Tangerang for the past week. God knows how hulu that place is. No internet connection and the most important thing I'd like to highlight, no bloody cabs passing by. I waited for almost 3 hours! Please please I don't want to be sent there back again for my next posting. I swear, I had such an excruciating life there. The hospital itself wasn't that bad. It was my hostel life which pretty sucked. Oh do tell me if you think that I sorta have hearing problem. I got so used to hearing loud voices and laughter. It was unbearable.

T____________T

Ps. To be safe, make sure you have the right people by your side or else you're gonna suffer to the extend of... oh only God knows.

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

I iz bz

Me in my oncall uniform for Paeds posting! ^__^
Yes, I haven't been updating you see. Paediatrics posting is starting to get hectic. Had my first night shift yesterday from 3.30pm till 6am the next day. The schedule for the next day started exactly at 7am with a morning report in which those who were on night shifts had to present one of the cases during their oncall. The day usually ended at 3pm and so the vicious cycyle starts all over again and again.

Mannn.. I didn't even sleep a wink last night. There were 6 old patients, 3 new patients. One case was brought to the resuscitation unit as a precaution measurement. She came with a sudden severe dyspnea and was diagnosed with heart failure ec chronic rheumatic heart disease with severe mitral regurgitation. Thrill was clearly seen and the murmur was loudly hurt. It was of grade 6, I think.. Since they were no medical students cuurrently posted at the Anesthesiology department, I had to monitor the patient cautiously throughout the night. Thank God she did not have to be resuscitated. :')

And so I went back to the hostel and slept till 7pm. (╥﹏╥) I need to get used to this since I'm gonna live like this for at least the next 30 years. O.o


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Monday, September 5, 2011

What the eff~


Ada siapa-siapa nak ke toilet, singgah la kat depan bilik hostel saya ye. Hahaha.. Baik punya toilet okay. Portable dowh.

Ps. Tiles toilet kena bongkah lagi sebab bocor ke bilik bawah. Damn. When will this ever end? (╥﹏╥)

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Sunday, September 4, 2011

Azam raya

Memang saya akui, raya tahun ini adalah yang paling hambar. Tapi raya kali ini jugalah telah mengajar saya untuk menjadi seseorang yang lebih dewasa dan matang bukan saja dari segi fizikal (eh? ada kaitan ke) tetapi juga dari segi rohani, sosial, mental bla bla~Well, you get the point. Tak perlulah saya cerita sedetail-detailnya (pergh, penyalahgunaan bahasa!). Cukuplah saya seorang je yang tahu.

Yang penting, saya sudah berazam dengan sesorang yang saya sangat sayang untuk menjadi lebih baik. Nobody's perfect. Memang, semua pun nak bagitau kat saya tapi I don't need anyone to tell me that. Sometimes, imperfections make us perfect. Tapi janganlah melampau sangat pulak kan. Saya memang tersangatlah banyak flaws. Physically (okay, tu memang obvious)dan juga dari aspek attitude dan personality. I know sometimes I'm all that (emotional, egoistic, and selfish) but trust me, I've never meant to hurt anyone's feelings. Kadang-kadang, kita buat sesuatu yang salah tanpa kita sedari atau kita sedar tapi kita pura-pura tak ambil tahu. Paham tak?

I would never want to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. Saya tahu kesabaran memang ada batasnya juga. Manusia, mereka belajar dari kesilapan. Kesilapan menjadi bahan untuk mematangkan diri ini. Sometimes, I think I need to get a real hard slap in the face. A wake up call. Like, seriously!

Apa yang terjadi, biarlah. Buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih. Whatever in the past is over. Mari kita buka buku baru dan biarkan ia dihiasi dengan detik-detik indah. I promise you to become a better me. InsyaAllah. :)

Bondi beach, Sydney.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Met lebaran 1432H!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri semua.
Maaf Zahir Batin :)


Saya tak balik Malaysia untuk raya pun. Ini hanyalah rekaan semata-mata. Pre-raya photoshoot. T___T Banyak dapat duit raya? 

Sunday, August 28, 2011

What I had today..

I cooked today! I can no longer stand the food here booyah~!

Sayur cap cay. Yeke? Muahaha.. Takpelah. Hentam je. :D

Ayam kurma bersama kentang

Pinggan makan saya

My meds! Of course la nie tak boleh tinggal. =p
Ps. He's coming back to Jakarta for Raya! Cant't wait! :)

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Waving the white flag

I have finally surrendered and decided to go to the hospital today. The moment I woke up, my dyspnea didn't even get better at all. It was still the same as yesterday. Auscultated my chest and thank God, there was no wheezing. Well, not yet. I hope there would be none at all!! If there is, it indicates that my asthma has only moved to the next stage. T__T And since my ventolin inhaler has expired, I've got no choice other than going to the hospital ASAP. It's a good thing I'm still able to walk by myself. :') If only he was here, he would have come and accompanied me but he wasn't even here sobs. :'(

As usual, went to the see the GP and explained everything yadda yadda. The thing that I hate the most is waiting for the meds at the pharmacy. Since my meds are insured, the staff there need to call up the insurance company and make sure that my meds are covered by them. I'm sure this time around there will be no problem since there were no supplements in my prescription (I like to see what I'm prescribed with!). Little did I know that they DID NOT HAVE BLOODY STOCK FOR VENTOLIN INHALER. Okay, I hope I made that very clear. =P

I mean, come on! I do not want to go the government hospital here so that I could skip all the hassle of having to wait for hours. Hello, I know how it feels like. I've been working/studying in the biggest tertiary national hospital and waiting for the queue is no big joke! And why would I go there if I'm medically insured by JPA? I suppose MH Thamrin Hospital is quite a BIG PRIVATE hospital but somehow, they're not up to their standard. Gahhh. When I asked when will the inhaler be available and the staff there (with muka selamba badak) replied Monday. MONDAY? That's like 2 days away. I can't wait that long. I mean, that's my most crucial med and I need it ASAP. I'm dyspnic ya know. It HURTS you dopehead. /crying T_____T

Didn't want to argue any longer so I simply asked for the prescription so that I could buy it from the pharmacy outside. I even had to ask for it TWICE. These people, really, are you guys trying to give me a heart attack or what? T__T So yeah, it's settled. Bought it from a VERY SMALL pharmacy store for a price of Rp 111 000. There goes my money. Sobs.

My meds. 
I hate meds. I really do. Why the heck do I wanna be a doctor then? So that I could enjoy torturing others by giving them meds muahaha! No, I'm kidding okay. =p

Friday, August 26, 2011

S.I.C.K

Baru je start posting Paeds, dah start sakit. But honestly, it's not me that I'm worried about. It's the kids at the ward and polyclinic! Their immune system must have been lower than usual and me being around them would only predispose them to infection.

Okay, tipulah kalau tak risau kat diri sendiri kan. The thing is, upper respiratory infection has always been quite a strong sole factor triggering my asthma. Yes, I do get sick. Often. Urgh. I hate common cold. It comes with a full package of fever, cough, headache, congested nose, and yadda yadda. I could do nothing for the past few days. Been sleeping the moment I reached my hostel till the next morning. During the lectures and bedside teachings, I couldn't pay attention. It was such a torture, having to stand in the polyclinic/ward for hours. They even blasted the place with the lowest temperature of air-conditioning. T___T God bless me.

Now dah boleh rasa cam sesak sikit. Oh no. Found my ventolin inhaler but whoops, it's already expired. T____T Demmm demm demmm!

Ps. I hope I don't need to use the nebulizer.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Day #1 of Paeds posting

Selamat kembali ke sekolah! Hari ni first day of Paediatrics posting. I was not fully prepared for this day actually. Flipped a few pages of my precious Lissauer's Paeds book and went to bed straight away. Haha. My first day started with an introduction lecture, continued with General Overview of what Paeds is all about. Biasalah, kalau lecture ni memang selalu boring. Dok lah bersengkang mata dan mendengar dengan teliti apa yang disampaikan.

Lepas lecture, kita orang disajikan dengan bedside teaching, my favourite way of learning since I get to concentrate more on what is being delivered to me. Yelah. Takkan nak slack sebab consultant akan betul-betul mengadap kita and ajar satu persatu. But actually scary jugaklah sebab selalunya akan kena attack with questions questions questions! There was one question that I managed to answer correctly but the doctor didn't hear me I guess. He was asking the importance of knowing the gender of the child. And I answered hemophilia, which is a sex-linked blood disorder, predominantly in male patients. Tapi doctor tak dengar sebab bila orang sebelah jawab hemophilia, dia kena puji. Tak aci. Tiruuuu jawapan gua. Cis tak guna. Haha.

Sangat suka bedside teaching hari ini. Hope I can remember all the theories that I got today for as long as I live. Okay, gila nerd bunyi dia kan. =P Just for a reminder for myself, there are five major causes of pale in children:

  1. Aplastic anemia
  2. Hemolytic anemia
  3. Iron-deficiency anemia
  4. Bleeding
  5. Malignancy (eg. leukemia)
I'm not sure if there's more but that's all what I got from today's bedside teaching. The consultant taught us how to make a working diagnosis and rule out the others. The patient that I met today was a 7-year old girl, suffering from ALL (Acute lymphoblastic leukemia) since she was three. Annnddd it turned out that her name is Mira. What a coincidence. The child's father was very co-operative and I was VERY VERY surprised on how VERY well-informed he is about his daughter's condition. He knew all the medical terms and conditions related to his daughter's disease. I was in awe, listening to the things that he knew.

And you know what, that made me realise. You gotta really understand your patients well and in return you should let know the important info that the patients should know. If you don't master the disease, how are you  supposed to do that? 

Okay, that reminds me to go and study now. Bye! 

Saturday, August 20, 2011

It has ended..

What has ended? Remember that workshop thingy that I was talking about? Yep that one! To be honest, the workshop was a total boredom. Practical sessions? Yawnssss. I was the only Malaysian in my group so you can figure out the rest. 14 students each group and out of those, I only know two of them, whom I wasn't very close to. I was so so SO lost. Not to mention my Indonesian is broken. Yes, I've been studying here for 4 years already (a year in Melbourne) but I still could not grasp the language. Urgh.

Gonna start my final year soon. I'm so nervous. But excited. Coz you know what final year means? It means I only have one year left and then I'll be going back home to Malaysia for good! Yessss. I can't freaking wait to get outta here. I sound like I hate staying here, don't I? Well, I do, partially. =/

Random photo: Sobs.. (╥﹏╥) My pathetic internet cable.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Back in Jakarta

Sudah pulang ke Jakarta. Oh benci. my flight to Jakarta was supposed to be on the 21st but I had to attend some workshop shit on the 19th and 20th. Hari pertama penuh dengan talks which were super boring. Had a pre-test before the sessions and post-test after everything has been delivered to us. They told us that if we fail the workshop, we're gonna have to attend again the following week along with our juniors. What the eff. I'm so not gonna go to that shit ever again. urgh.

Tahun ni tak balik raya LAGI. Oh sedih. Last year tak balik sebab ada night shift and busy kena study. The year before, memang takde cuti coz I was in Melbourne. Raya raya raya. Sekarang dah tak berapa nak bermakna buat saya. Oh tapi kalau dapat raya dengan family, still rasa seronok bukan?

This year's raya gonna suck! Raya without family, without my beloved sweetheart. :( Nasib baik kawan-kawan masih ada di sisi. Thanks girls. Ye, girlfriends je. Hahaha. Okeh, kena study for tomorrow's practical sessions. Combine dengan regular class which means, saya seorang je Malaysian dalam kelompok I. Wahhhh. :( Babai!

Friday, August 12, 2011

Forever 21 adik sayang!

My sister and I ^‿^
Happy 21st Birthday to my dearest sister, Anith! Kamu dah besar rupanya ye. Hehe.. Wish you for never-ending happiness and may this year be your best ever. :) I love you lots my dear xoxo ♥♥♥

Ps. I'm surely gonna miss you. :'(

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Shop shop shop till we drop!

Sebenarnya nak update semalam tapi rasa macam malas je. Setiap kali balik dari terawikh, switch on laptop bukak Facebook, stalk orang seperti biasa pastu tak lama kemudian bosan. Bila bosan, tidolah~ Hehe.. Oh well, here goes nothing.

Semalam saya dan adik saya yang comel pergi shopping kat Berjaya Times Square! Tempat paling heaven nak shop sebab kedai banyak dan banyak murah-murah. Sampai sana pukul 11am. Balik dari Times Square pukul 5pm. Mana taknya sengal-sengal kaki ni. =P Adik saya jadi fashion consultant sebab tahukah anda yang saya..
sangatlah tak pandai bershopping sakan? xD

Ye. Itulah kenyataannya sebab bila keluar shopping dengan kawan-kawan, I always ended up being the one without any plastic bags. Orang lain penuh dengan plastic bags kiri kanan dan saya hanya berlenggang mak minah jek. xD Maksud saya di sini shop bajulah~ Dengan adanya fashion consultant yang saya telah hired secara tidak rasmi, saya berjaya telah membeli 7 clothing items. Muahaha~ Gila ke apa. But of course, I don't really mind buying unbranded stuff so booyah~ Ada saya kisah?

Dalam LRT. xD

Adek saya comel :)

Hai, Ini saya. xD

Anit cinta Caesar, si hero chimpanzee. Hik3.

Menunggu wayang
Items yang telah dibeli
In the future, hope saya tak turn into shopaholic la. Nanti kesian la bakal suami saya. Muahaha xD Okeh, gedik je. Bye!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna...

Desir pasir di padang tandus
Segersang pemikiran hati
Terkisah ku di antara cinta yang rumit

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekadar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna
Cinta ini tak mungkin ku cegah
Ayat-ayat cinta bercerita
Cintaku padamu
Bila bahagia mulai menyentuh
Seakan ku bisa hidup lebih lama
Namun harus ku tinggalkan cinta
Ketika ku bersujud

Bila keyakinanku datang
Kasih bukan sekedar cinta
Pengorbanan cinta yang agung
Ku pertaruhkan

Ketika ku bersujud
Ketika ku bersujud

Brighton Beach, Melbourne, Australia.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Salam Ramadan

Esok dah nak masuk hari ke-5 berpuasa but it's never too late to wish all Muslims Happy Fasting kan. :) Puasa jangan tak puasa. Semalam ayah saya jadi bilal kat surau. So terawikh full lah kan. Hehe.. Ayah saya semangat wohhh. Suara mantap dan kuat. Tapi bunyi cam garang siket. Hik3~

And oh, hari ini saya buat karipap dengan mama saya. Saya cuma kelim je actually. Hehe. Pastu goreng. Sedap wohhh sehingga menjilat jari. Laku kot agak-agaknya kalau jual kat Bazaar Ramadan.

Ignore the slightly blackened parts. They were delicious nevertheless, I'm telling ya!
Okay bye! ◕‿◕

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Saya tau saya kecik je tapi...

Hari ni nak cakap pasal driving lagi. Title entry di atas ini bukan nak merujuk kepada diri saya yang kecik sebab saya tak kecik. Eh, tapi takdelah saya tinggi. Saya tinggi ke sisi bukan ke atas muahaha~ Anyways, kecik di atas merujuk kepada the only car that I can drive, Perodua Kancil. Yes, tau-tau je lah kan keta Kancil ni memang kecik je senang nak handlekan boleh menyelit sana sini. Oh tidak, saya tak drive camtu. Jadilah pemandu yang berhemah okay~

Bukan nak kata apa. Tatau lah wa yang terasa atau apa tapi what I can see that kereta yang besar-besar dan mahal macam Anaconda Honda Accord ke, Mercedes Jones Benz, Volgograd Volvo ke, mesti cam pandang rendah kat keta cam aku ni. Kenapa? Mereka-mereka yang pernah drive Kancil jek tau.

Situasi 1
Tengah sedap-sedap potong kereta lain kat highway, tetiba ada satu keta besau drive dekat dari belakang cam nak langgar je. Takpun akan flash-flashkan lampu keta diorang. Siot. Aku tau lah nak ke tepi satgi. Takkan takleh tunggu kejap. Sakit hati tau tak.

Situasi 2
Tengah drive pastu ada satu keta potong memandang-mandang keta Kancil aku sambil ketawa-ketawa. Motif? Entahlah. Sama ada dia gelakkan keta aku yang tak basuh seribu beberapa bulan atau dia nak ngorat adek aku. Muahaha~ Pelempang nak?

Situasi 3
Kalau parking keta, selalunya akan pilih tempat kosong takde keta kiri kanan. Sekali bila nak balik, dua biji Honda parking sebelah-sebelah je menhighlightkan lagi kekecikan keta Kancil ni. Hek eleh. Siot. Emo emo. Hahaha..

Okay, situasi 3 takde kena mengena. Aku je yang terasa. Hehehe~

Ps. OMG. Transition dari "saya" ke "aku" dalam entry ni. Heh~
Pps. Adek wa tak suka wa cakap "aku". Dia kata cam cacat dan pelik. -___-"

Friday, July 29, 2011

Memandu dengan penuh berhemah

I first got my driving license yearssss ago. Right after my SPM examination. Tapi after dah dapat tu, seriously memang tak penah drive jauh-jauh. The farthest that I had been to was the other neighbourhood nearby. Kiranya tak penah lepas ke jalan besar. Yes, ini bukan tipu tapi kisah benar ye~ The thing is, most people would probably be so excited when they get their license and of course lah nak drive jenjalan pi sana sini dengan sakannya. But me? Ayah paksa suruh drive pun takmau.

Bukan malas. Bukan takmau. Bukan benci drive. Tapi, takut. Okay, jangan tanya camne saya lepas driving test coz surprisingly, wa pun tatau. Hahaha..

Muka sememeh jek. Tak kachak ah
Tapi akhirnya berjaga jugok drive sampai highway LDP. Teehee~ Bangga. Walaupun banyak je flaws bak kata tok guru kecik saya yang boleh tahan gak ketauliahan beliau, Anith Fatin.

Ni tok guru saya. Tapi dia bawak keta pulok time nie :D Oh benci overexposed photos!
Saya harus mengingatkan diri supaya tidak membawa kereta di jalan raya seperti ber"Go-Kart". Mama saya kata berderau darah dia tengok saya main Go-Kart sebab drift kat selekoh jalan fuhhhhhhhh~ Bajet F1 habes la konon.

Ni lah pelumba Go-Kart bajet F1 hahaha
Bye!