Little Miss A

Just when I thought nothing is worse than O&G posting, Orthopaedic came along and proved it all wrong. Come on, Ortho sucks? Why in the world would Ortho suck? Ortho was never my best subject. To be honest, I have no idea what I learnt from medical school years ago. Ortho was only a minor subset of my Surgery posting. I was never truly exposed to Ortho. It's just too specialized, I guess? *shrugs*

Just when I thought to quickly wrap it up and move on to the next posting, the dream just died right during my first month in Ortho. I wanted to stay invisible so badly but SHE jussttttt had to choose me to become her mentee. What did I ever do in my past life to ever be treated like this? My life is doomed. No, I'm not being a drama queen here thankyouverymuch. People keep telling me I can do it bla bla bla and shits. Yeah, easier said than done.

I can't stand her anymore. Please let this be over.
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Holy crap, I'll be having EOP assessment with her. There's no escape.

Ps. "SHE" refers to an infamous Orthopaedic surgeon. Everyone is just so scared of her including the MOs. How the hell am I supposed to endure her every single freaking day of my Ortho life? You tell me.

O&G

I hate this posting.

The atmosphere. The people.

Everyone is so emotional. 

Workload is fine. It's the same damn thing every single day anyway.

Bleargh. I just hate O&G.

Period.

Housemanship #1

One of my colleagues posted this on our ward's Whatsapp group. Gelak guling-guling baca! Adakah ini salah satu cara untuk houseman melepaskan stress? Lol. This might not be true because it will be a medicolegal issue if something like this is actually being written in the patient's BHT (bed head ticket = patient's medical file).

Whatever pun, memang terbaiklah houseman yang tulis cenggini. Hahaha~

The obnoxious one

Out of all bosses in Surgery, there is this one particular surgeon that had left me a very bad first impression on my first day in Surgical posting. Let's call him The Obnoxious One. Lol. I hope he doesn't find his way to this blog. I heard he's married with two wives and one of them is Chinese (I bet must be his second wife). And so I heard that he is fond of Chinese-looking female housemen. CUTE Chinese-looking housemen. I might look Chinese but I am definitely not cute. Lol. Anyway, I would be better be off than having him as his favourite. Yep, I pretty much hate him. Good thing he's not my assessor.

I had my night shift yesterday and I was surprised how soooo "lucky" I was that he was oncall on the same night too. We were warned that all housemen in the ward are to stay back until he is done with the rounds. Morning shift usually starts at 7am till 7pm, night shift starts at 6pm till 7am and he only started his round at 8.15pm. Since my ward was the last one to be rounded (lol, sorry, couldn't find any other word for it), most of the housemen decided to ignore his order and went back early. Seriously, if I were them, I would definitely stay back because he is not someone to be meddled with. You definitely do not want to have any trouble with him.

Waiting for him was painful in the ass. What even more painful is when seeing him already in the ward with a smirk on his face. And so the ward round started.

Boss: Are all the housemen in the ward? (The other wards are packed with housemen and seeing that they were only a few housemen left in the ward made him asked that question.

Silence....

Boss: ARE ALL THE HOUSEMEN IN THE WARD??! Aifaa, are all the housemen in the ward ?

Aifaa: *shook head* No boss.

Boss: Didn't I tell you all to stay in the ward until I'm done with the rounds? If you people cannot stay back for 2 hours longer, I guess 3 months of extension should be fine! Aifaa, make a name list of housemen who are not in the ward and pass it to me. If any of them are under me, they better be praying.

Us: Gulp...

Gahhhh. Having ward round with him is torturing enough and now this! Lucky thing that he did not ask much during the rounds. The medical officer cut me off when I was presenting my case, in which I was glad he did! Lol. The round ended after 20 minutes. It was brief probably because he was mad.

Yeah. Welcome to HKL baby! Yes, working here is stressful but I doubt any difference elsewhere. Surgery is already well-known to be a tough posting due to the pathologically-minded bosses so I already prepared myself what to expect. I'm just gonna lay low and get over this ASAP. Wish me luck peeps! ;)

Potong orang, jahit orang

I'm taking back my words from previous blog post. I LOVE Paediatric posting. Turns out Surgery is even worse. Four weeks have passed by and I dare say that surgical-based field is definitely not my thing. I'm more of a medical person. (Walaupun ilmu takdelah banyak mana, sangat cetek, perasan suka Medical sangatttt haha)

Bosses in surgical posting aren't the nicest but they're not as bad as what people have been telling me till every morning the housemen would be having rounds-induced diarrhea. Haha. Bebudak ni exaggerate betul lah! First week in Surgery dah kena maki bagai. As usual, I put up my poker face whenever I get scolded.

Some of the surgeons are super nice. But most of them are not. I just have the feelings that surgeons, generally speaking, are arrogant. They only see what they wanna see. They know that once patient will not be healed medically, surgery is the only solution available.

Whatever it is, Medical for life! :P

Still alive!

Yes, I am. LMAO.
Work has been tough. Life as well.
It's been 5 months since I  started working. Survived my Medical posting, Alhamdulillah. Currently doing Paediatrics. I don't enjoy Paeds that much. Medical is actually far more interesting despite the workload but I don't think I'm capable of being a Medial specialist. Idk. So many things to master and I obviously do not have the knowledge. It's literally EVERYTHING about medicine.

Paeds? Meh. Boring. And I don't like handling SICK kids. I love kids but not sick kids. They'll just cry and scream at you whenever you're near them. They'll scream their lungs out when you're about to poke their small precious veins. God. By the end of the posting, I might actually end up being deaf!

Too much ranting eh?
I don't know if I'm enjoying my work or not. There are times where I feel like I don't have a life.
I LOVE MY JOB. I LOVE MY JOB. *hearts hearts*

Heh.

Less than a month

InsyaAllah, there is less than a month until I am no longer carefree.
Less than a month until I start working.
Most important of all, less than a month until I am responsible for my patients.

My patients.

Gulp.

Of course I will still be working under the supervision of medical officers but the responsibility that I have to bear is huge compared to when I was still a medical student. During my clinical years as a student, we ought to clerk patients, do reviews, perform procedures, etc. Yes, they're almost the same thing as what house officers do but everything that we did was mostly instructed by the residents. And now, I need to make my own decision before consulting the MOs.

"You'll learn more from mistakes". If it's a minor one, that might have been forgiven. What if it's fatal? Will it still be okay?

The lives of your patients are in your hands now. Welcome to the real world honey.