I'm definitely not much of a writer. I suck at composing and that explains the long absence of any new blog posts here. I write whenever I feel like to. Even if I did feel like writing something, the thoughts ended up being lost somewhere in my brain and I just couldn't find them back.
Yadda yadda. The truth is, I'm just l-a-z-y.
Dah genap dua bulan pulang ke Malaysia. I officially ended my degree on 13th of July. Took some time to shop for my family, packed my stuff, and got ready to end everything for good. Real good.
It still feels surreal that I've actually completed my years in medical school. Six years is definitely not a short period of time. I'm finally a doctor. Percaya? Entah, kadang-kadang saya sendiri rasa tak percaya. Dulu masa first year, bila tengok final year students, rasa kagum. Bila masuk clinical phase, tengok doctors rasa kagum. Sekarang, bila dah jadi doktor? Rasa serba kekurangan. Tak rasa pun saya tahu semua benda sebab dulu saya ingat doktor mesti tahu segala-galanya kan.
Housemanship. One thing that scares me. Semua fresh medical graduates pasti akan menempuhi hal yang sama. Kalau orang lain boleh, kenapa tidak saya?
Harus kuat semangat. Semoga semuanya berjalan lancar seperti yang diharapkan. Amin.
Showing posts with label medical school. Show all posts
Showing posts with label medical school. Show all posts
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Friday, June 15, 2012
Sexism
According to the dictionary,
In this modern world, there is still a whole bunch of sexists. Well, the discrimination against women that we can see now isn't really that obvious or extreme and it is usually done in a very subtle way. Even sexism occurs in my very own educational institute.
There was one time where we were supposed to have a lecture with this very "infamous" consultant doctor. The moment when it was his time to deliver his lecture, all female students moved to the back rows, leaving the male students in front (I sat at the back from the start :p). I didn't really know the exact reason to this sudden peculiar act. As soon as the consultant doctor entered, it struck me this was the lecturer that they were talking about. Most female students dislike him for his negative perception towards women becoming a doctor. YES, he thinks it's best for all women to stay at home and look after the family.Or even if we would like to work, we should have chosen other career instead.
What bullshit is that?
During his lecture, he would stop momentarily if there was anything that he could relate to disagreeing on women working as a doctor. Gosh. It annoyed the crap outta me so much that I felt like leaving the lecture hall that instance. What craps did he have against women? He then asked some of the girls questions and if they could not answer, he pointed out his idiotic notion over and over again. -__-"
Seriously doc. Seriously. Are you from the Paleolithic era? Other times, I got the same treatment from the public. For example, whenever I have my night shifts at the Emergency Unit or the wards, the patient's family would call me "nurse". At first, I thought it was due to my blue scrub since I did not wear my white coat. But even when I wear my white coat, they still call me nurse! Isn't that obvious?? Please, don't take me wrongly. Nurse is a very important and noble job. Without them, the doctors won't be able to carry out their jobs optimally. It's just that, they call the male students "doctor" whereas the girls are called "nurse" most of the time. It's not very apparent but that kinda gives you the idea of sexism, don't you think so?
I wanna become a doctor and nothing can stop me. Boohoo!
sex·ism
n.
- Discrimination based on gender, especially discrimination against women.
- Attitudes, conditions, or behaviors that promote stereotyping of social roles based on gender.
In this modern world, there is still a whole bunch of sexists. Well, the discrimination against women that we can see now isn't really that obvious or extreme and it is usually done in a very subtle way. Even sexism occurs in my very own educational institute.
There was one time where we were supposed to have a lecture with this very "infamous" consultant doctor. The moment when it was his time to deliver his lecture, all female students moved to the back rows, leaving the male students in front (I sat at the back from the start :p). I didn't really know the exact reason to this sudden peculiar act. As soon as the consultant doctor entered, it struck me this was the lecturer that they were talking about. Most female students dislike him for his negative perception towards women becoming a doctor. YES, he thinks it's best for all women to stay at home and look after the family.Or even if we would like to work, we should have chosen other career instead.
What bullshit is that?
During his lecture, he would stop momentarily if there was anything that he could relate to disagreeing on women working as a doctor. Gosh. It annoyed the crap outta me so much that I felt like leaving the lecture hall that instance. What craps did he have against women? He then asked some of the girls questions and if they could not answer, he pointed out his idiotic notion over and over again. -__-"
Seriously doc. Seriously. Are you from the Paleolithic era? Other times, I got the same treatment from the public. For example, whenever I have my night shifts at the Emergency Unit or the wards, the patient's family would call me "nurse". At first, I thought it was due to my blue scrub since I did not wear my white coat. But even when I wear my white coat, they still call me nurse! Isn't that obvious?? Please, don't take me wrongly. Nurse is a very important and noble job. Without them, the doctors won't be able to carry out their jobs optimally. It's just that, they call the male students "doctor" whereas the girls are called "nurse" most of the time. It's not very apparent but that kinda gives you the idea of sexism, don't you think so?
I wanna become a doctor and nothing can stop me. Boohoo!
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| Soon-to-be doctors from University of Indonesia, Jakarta. Wish us luck! ;) |
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
I need to be more kiasu
Had a discussion with an Orthopedic consultant this morning. Each of us was given a topic and asked to find a patient related to our own topic. Mine was Degenerative Disease and of course, I couldn't find any patients in the ward. The only choice is to find them in the Orthopedic Polyclinic. Honestly, I would rather find a patient in the ward for case presentation since you could always go back and forth to the patient whenever you missed something (history-taking, physical examinations). Well, you can't do that in the Polyclinic, obviously! I had a very limited time to do history-taking and physical examinations since there were soooo many patients waiting to be examined. I couldn't take my own sweet time, you see!
The consultant asked me to present my case unexpectedly today. It was supposed to be tomorrow so I didn't really prepare much. My case was about a 71-year-old female with bilateral knee osteoarthritis. She already had total knee replacement in her left knee and was scheduled to have another knee replacement in the contralateral knee. I was being shot a lot of questions from A to Z and most importantly, he asked me why I didn't do a complete knee examination. I only performed the usual Look, Feel and Move but totally forgot about the specific knee examinations such as Lachman test, anterior and posterior drawer tests, patellar ballottement and the list goes on.
Well, you know, being ME, I told him honestly that I didn't perform those examinations. Anddddd he started to give a long lecture on how I should be more enthusiastic and comprehensive in handling a patient. Seriously rasa macam orang paling bodoh kat dunia ni. Okay, exaggerates pulak. Hihi~ I hate "the" feeling. Like I'm not competent enough. After the long lecture, he stopped and said that he liked my honesty and he said it's okay since I'm still in the process of learning. Maybe he thought that I looked as if I was about to cry kot? Hahahaha.
Baiklah doktor! Saya akan cuba menjadi lebih kiasu dalam proses pembelajaran saya. ^__^
Ps. Some of my group mates didn't even see their patients. Their presentation was solely based on the medical records written by the residents. Well, at least I did everything on my own and I'm proud of my own hard work even though it was nowhere near perfect. :)
The consultant asked me to present my case unexpectedly today. It was supposed to be tomorrow so I didn't really prepare much. My case was about a 71-year-old female with bilateral knee osteoarthritis. She already had total knee replacement in her left knee and was scheduled to have another knee replacement in the contralateral knee. I was being shot a lot of questions from A to Z and most importantly, he asked me why I didn't do a complete knee examination. I only performed the usual Look, Feel and Move but totally forgot about the specific knee examinations such as Lachman test, anterior and posterior drawer tests, patellar ballottement and the list goes on.
Well, you know, being ME, I told him honestly that I didn't perform those examinations. Anddddd he started to give a long lecture on how I should be more enthusiastic and comprehensive in handling a patient. Seriously rasa macam orang paling bodoh kat dunia ni. Okay, exaggerates pulak. Hihi~ I hate "the" feeling. Like I'm not competent enough. After the long lecture, he stopped and said that he liked my honesty and he said it's okay since I'm still in the process of learning. Maybe he thought that I looked as if I was about to cry kot? Hahahaha.
Baiklah doktor! Saya akan cuba menjadi lebih kiasu dalam proses pembelajaran saya. ^__^
Ps. Some of my group mates didn't even see their patients. Their presentation was solely based on the medical records written by the residents. Well, at least I did everything on my own and I'm proud of my own hard work even though it was nowhere near perfect. :)
Friday, May 18, 2012
Internist vs Surgeon?
I'm currently in my last clinical posting, Surgery. Tell you what, I don't like Surgery. I find Internal Medicine is far more interesting. The knowledge and all, you know. Internists; they think a lot. They really dig down regarding whatever is happening to the patients. Surgeons; they don't really think. They open up human bodies and then only they know the diagnosis. I asked one of the Surgery residents on why they took up Surgery instead of other medical fields. His answer was simply because he feels like he doesn't need to think much. Not much of studying etc. All you gotta have is skills! Not sure that is true or not because as a patient, you definitely would not want to be under the knife before the diagnosis is established!
My friend once told me, "be an Internist and marry a Surgeon". Well. I think Surgeons are cool. And most surgeons are male doctors. During my night shifts, I was surrounded by male doctors. Seriously rasa awkward. And they tend to be of good-looking too! Ahem. :P My boyfriend did mention that he would either consider to be an ObGyn specialist or a Surgeon. Oh, jadi Surgeon please! :P
But in the end of the day, surgeons and internists don't go along very well, you see. They blame each other. They hate each other. During one of my night shifts, one of the internists got mad because a patient was referred to her by a surgery resident with a vague diagnosis. Yes, coz they don't think, that's why! They argued about how the patient should be managed medically and surgically. I didn't really get the whole picture but I can see, they don't work well together.
Well. I still think Surgeons are cool! ;)
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Coz I'm lazy~
Been neglecting this blog for ages. Honestly, I have nothing interesting to blog about. Hari-hari mengadap benda sama je. Haha.. Just finished my elective posting at the Renal-Hypertension division of Internal Medicine Department. I gotta say, I learned a lot from my elective posting. We mainly focused on Hypertension. Do you know there are so many guidelines for the management of hypertension. The guideline that has always been mentioned excessively is The Seventh Report of the Joint National Committee on Prevention, Detection,
Evaluation, and Treatment of High Blood Pressure (JNC 7) but there are several others such as the ones released by the National Institute for Health and Clinical Excellence (NICE), European Society of Hypertension (ESH), and Canadian Hypertension Education Program (CHEP).
Next week, I'm gonna enter the last posting of my final year, SURGERY. Seriously, tak sabar nak habiskan everything here then be back home for good. Back to my beloved family and friends in Malaysia. ^__^ But before that, I'm gonna have to go through the very last obstacle for achieving my medical degree, the Comprehensive exam and integrated OSCE. T__T My examiners for my comprehensive exam will be from Pediatrics and Neurology departments. I am so dead. Pediatrics was my first posting for final year and I had Neurology during my 5th year. How am I supposed to remember the things I've learned? o__O Need to brush up my knowledge a bit since their questions are gonna be so unpredictable. I mean, they can ask anything. ANYTHING.
So yeah. There's no score for the exam. It's either you pass or fail. If you fail, that means you're gonna have to re-sit for remedial. -__-" Hope I don't have to! Bismillahirrahmanirahim..
Yuk studyyyy! Macam orang tu cakap, "Mira kan kiasu". Heh~
Evaluation, and Treatment of High Blood Pressure (JNC 7) but there are several others such as the ones released by the National Institute for Health and Clinical Excellence (NICE), European Society of Hypertension (ESH), and Canadian Hypertension Education Program (CHEP).
Next week, I'm gonna enter the last posting of my final year, SURGERY. Seriously, tak sabar nak habiskan everything here then be back home for good. Back to my beloved family and friends in Malaysia. ^__^ But before that, I'm gonna have to go through the very last obstacle for achieving my medical degree, the Comprehensive exam and integrated OSCE. T__T My examiners for my comprehensive exam will be from Pediatrics and Neurology departments. I am so dead. Pediatrics was my first posting for final year and I had Neurology during my 5th year. How am I supposed to remember the things I've learned? o__O Need to brush up my knowledge a bit since their questions are gonna be so unpredictable. I mean, they can ask anything. ANYTHING.
So yeah. There's no score for the exam. It's either you pass or fail. If you fail, that means you're gonna have to re-sit for remedial. -__-" Hope I don't have to! Bismillahirrahmanirahim..
Yuk studyyyy! Macam orang tu cakap, "Mira kan kiasu". Heh~
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
We're not Gods.
Chi-ku-ngu-nya.
Just in case you people find it difficult to pronounce it. Sila menggunakan sebutan baku ye. Anyway, Chikungunya is an insect-borne virus that is transmitted to humans by Aedes mosquitoes. Yep, Aedes tidak hanya membawa penyakit demam Dengue tetapi juga Chikungunya (cuba sebut Chikungunya banyak-banyak kali dan laju-laju. Boleh jadi tongue twister dowh~ :p) Dengue dan Chikungunya ni boleh dikatakan hampir serupa gejalanya sebab dua-dua adalah viral infection.
Okay, I'm not gonna blab what Chikungunya is all about. Rasanya lebih banyak medical sources yang lebih valid di luar sana untuk anda baca. :) Even one of the patients that I met in the clinic read BBC Health yawww~ Mantaps!
We had mini CEX with the doctor in-charge at the clinic today. She's a GP, I think. Or family medicine specialist? Idk. Socializing - I'm not good at that. Jumpa satu patient ni. Seriously sangat educated. He knows everything about his condition, from A to Z. Pastu dia ada cakap dia pernah kena Chikungunya dulu. The first thing that blurted out from the doctor's mouth was,
Saya bukan nak mengutuk ke apa. Yes, we are from the medical team. We thought we knew everything. Of course we do know more than what the patients know. Enam tahun bergelumangan kat medical school yaw~ But we're only humans. We make mistakes. Tapi kalau dah salah tu, lebih baik mengaku je. Tak yah nak tunjuk pandai. Coz in the end, if we ended up giving false information to the patient, it might be harmful to them. Saya sangat respek kat doktor yang mengaku "secara jujurnya saya belum pernah baca/ saya tidak tahu". We don't have to pretend like we know everything. Be humble. Kalau tak tau, cakap je tak tau. Kita cari maklumat lepas tu sampaikanlah maklumat yang benar kepada patient kita. Senang je kan? ;)
Ingatlah medical ethics yang kita pernah belajar dulu.
First, do no harm.
Ps. Tapi agak ridiculous kalau doctor tak tau cara menular Chikungunya tu.
Pps. The doctor was from a private clinic. Not from the national hospital where I have my clinical years at. The doctors there semua sangat pandai okay. :)
Just in case you people find it difficult to pronounce it. Sila menggunakan sebutan baku ye. Anyway, Chikungunya is an insect-borne virus that is transmitted to humans by Aedes mosquitoes. Yep, Aedes tidak hanya membawa penyakit demam Dengue tetapi juga Chikungunya (cuba sebut Chikungunya banyak-banyak kali dan laju-laju. Boleh jadi tongue twister dowh~ :p) Dengue dan Chikungunya ni boleh dikatakan hampir serupa gejalanya sebab dua-dua adalah viral infection.
Okay, I'm not gonna blab what Chikungunya is all about. Rasanya lebih banyak medical sources yang lebih valid di luar sana untuk anda baca. :) Even one of the patients that I met in the clinic read BBC Health yawww~ Mantaps!
We had mini CEX with the doctor in-charge at the clinic today. She's a GP, I think. Or family medicine specialist? Idk. Socializing - I'm not good at that. Jumpa satu patient ni. Seriously sangat educated. He knows everything about his condition, from A to Z. Pastu dia ada cakap dia pernah kena Chikungunya dulu. The first thing that blurted out from the doctor's mouth was,
Dr. X: Di rumah banyak tikus pak?Okay, tak tau nak gelak atau apa. Entah kenapa saya pulak yang rasa malu time tu. The first thing that came to my mind was, "doctor ni cakap pasal leptospirosis ke"? Obviously, the patient was not stupid and obviously, the doctor did clearly aware of the topic that the patient was talking about coz she repeated the word "Chikungunya" herself before asking that ridiculous question.
Pak Y: Iya, banyak sekali...*awkward silence*
.............. eh, tikus? bukannya nyamuk ya?
Dr. X: Iya, sama aja pak. Bisa aja tertular.
Pak Y: *kebingungan, poker face*
Saya bukan nak mengutuk ke apa. Yes, we are from the medical team. We thought we knew everything. Of course we do know more than what the patients know. Enam tahun bergelumangan kat medical school yaw~ But we're only humans. We make mistakes. Tapi kalau dah salah tu, lebih baik mengaku je. Tak yah nak tunjuk pandai. Coz in the end, if we ended up giving false information to the patient, it might be harmful to them. Saya sangat respek kat doktor yang mengaku "secara jujurnya saya belum pernah baca/ saya tidak tahu". We don't have to pretend like we know everything. Be humble. Kalau tak tau, cakap je tak tau. Kita cari maklumat lepas tu sampaikanlah maklumat yang benar kepada patient kita. Senang je kan? ;)
Ingatlah medical ethics yang kita pernah belajar dulu.
First, do no harm.
Ps. Tapi agak ridiculous kalau doctor tak tau cara menular Chikungunya tu.
Pps. The doctor was from a private clinic. Not from the national hospital where I have my clinical years at. The doctors there semua sangat pandai okay. :)
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Internal Medicine
The reason why I haven't been blogging for the past few weeks is this..
Seriously depressed. Having to write 3 portfolio papers in a week is torturing. Mind you, it's not the normal portfolio okay. Imagine if the patient has 13 problems, I have to discuss all 13 problems one by one, how I establish the diagnosis, my diagnostic plan, treatment plan yadda yadda. As for the follow ups, one problem should include all the explicit details on SOAP
S: subjective (patient's complaints)
O: objective (physical exams, lab exams, supporting exams)
A: assessment
P: plan (diagnostic, treatment, education)
If you have 13 problems, you're gonna have 13 SOAPs in a day. Since I have to follow up the patients for a week, I'm gonna have 4 days of follow up. To make it worse, multiply that by 3 since I have 3 patients.
Ps. We can't complain since the Internal Medicine residents are doing the same thing too. No wonder the medical records are so freaking thick!
Pps. Tell me why do I wanna become a doctor again?
Internal Medicine posting
I hatechuuuuuu! Okay, dah tak boleh besar lagi ke font ni? Haha.. Seriously, separuh mati rasanya mengharungi posting ni. We basically learn everything yang ada dalam tubuh kita, the internal organs. Tau tak berapa banyak organ ada haaaa? T___T *cries*Seriously depressed. Having to write 3 portfolio papers in a week is torturing. Mind you, it's not the normal portfolio okay. Imagine if the patient has 13 problems, I have to discuss all 13 problems one by one, how I establish the diagnosis, my diagnostic plan, treatment plan yadda yadda. As for the follow ups, one problem should include all the explicit details on SOAP
S: subjective (patient's complaints)
O: objective (physical exams, lab exams, supporting exams)
A: assessment
P: plan (diagnostic, treatment, education)
If you have 13 problems, you're gonna have 13 SOAPs in a day. Since I have to follow up the patients for a week, I'm gonna have 4 days of follow up. To make it worse, multiply that by 3 since I have 3 patients.
THIS IS MADNESS.
Ps. We can't complain since the Internal Medicine residents are doing the same thing too. No wonder the medical records are so freaking thick!
Pps. Tell me why do I wanna become a doctor again?
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
The 12 types of med students
Sometimes, I can be "painfully enthusiastic". But of most of the time, I'm a "sensitive soul" but definitely not to the extend of giving up my properties. :p
LOL at the last one. Are they trying to say all medical students are insane? Oh well, maybe we are. There were times where I had doubt about choosing doctor as my lifetime career. You know, you gotta study for at least 5-6 years long and the journey doesn't end there. You still have to go for horsemanship for a minimum of 2 years long and serve the government for another 8 years including the 3 compulsory years? (I'm a JPA scholar holder so that explains it all).
This is madness, I tell ya.
But honestly, I can't imagine myself doing other things. Despite the workloads, I do enjoy being in a medical school. I love what I'm doing right now. The working part? The real life? I'll just think about it later. Teehee~ :P
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Capek
Capek = exhausted / letih / penat dan seangkatan dengannya.
Semalam ada night duty kat IGD Kebidanan (IGD = instalasi gawat darurat / emergency unit). Patient tak banyak but I did learn something so it was all good. Managed to witness a sharp curettage for abortion. The next time, I'll be the one doing it, I hope! The doctor in charge let me performing vaginal touché and bimanual examination. It was an entirely different feeling! Selalu buat kat patung je hehehe~
Sadly, I still haven't got the chance to help deliver a baby! Oh well, it's only my first night duty, 2nd week of ObsGyn.
Oh, did I mention kiasu-ism is highly infectious? I've been infected. =P
Semalam ada night duty kat IGD Kebidanan (IGD = instalasi gawat darurat / emergency unit). Patient tak banyak but I did learn something so it was all good. Managed to witness a sharp curettage for abortion. The next time, I'll be the one doing it, I hope! The doctor in charge let me performing vaginal touché and bimanual examination. It was an entirely different feeling! Selalu buat kat patung je hehehe~
Sadly, I still haven't got the chance to help deliver a baby! Oh well, it's only my first night duty, 2nd week of ObsGyn.
Oh, did I mention kiasu-ism is highly infectious? I've been infected. =P
Saturday, November 5, 2011
I've been busy
Extremely busy. Or lazy if I happen to have free time. Haha.. The first week of Obgyn has been super tiring and mind-cramping. In three days, I repeat, THREE DAYS, we were expected to remember the basics and skills for the first OSCE and written exam. I swore I almost blew up. It was such a stressful week for me. There were 15 stations for medical skills which included all those important gynaecologic examinations, assisting normal labour, counselings, curretage, manual vacuum aspiration in abortion, etc~ Guess what, on the very same day, I had to sit for a written exam too!
Weeks ahead are gonna be so tiring but I bet it's gonna be hella fun! I shall wait for the moment where I may get to assist baby delivery FOR REAL! Woot woot!
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| Post-OSCE! In the lecture hall, while waiting for the consultant doctor! |
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| Can't you see my happy face? xD |
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| Hardworking students :p |
Friday, October 28, 2011
Goodbye Paediatrics, Hello ObsGyn!
Seperti biasa, before exam berkobar-kobar nak update blog. Bila habis je exam, malas gila nak sentuh blog sebab dapat buat benda lain yang lagi best atau sekadar bermalas-malasan tahap cipan. Hehe.. =P So today marked the end of paediatrics posting! Tak sangka 9 minggu berlalu rasa macam sekejap je. Like, seriously! I didn't feel anything. Time flew way too fast. Tau-tau je dah grad. Pastu balik Malaysia for good chewah! Can't freaking wait for that moment! ^__^
Overall, Paediatrics is exciting and fun! I love it. Really. Previously, my view towards Paeds was like...blearghhh. To be honest, I had once dreamt of becoming a Paedatrician and it was all because of this one Paeds doctor whom I was very fond of. When I was a kid, I always had to go and meet him due to my severe asthma condition. He treated me so well that I kinda idolized him (mind you, I was only 6 back then!). Pastu bila dah besaq sikit, rasa cam tak suka budak-budak so I swore I didn't want to become a Paediatrician. But who knows suddenly suka Paeds plak. Kids...they're so pure and innocent! They don't lie. They cry, they tell us the truth when they are hurt or in pain. But adults? They lie most of the time. Geriatric patients? They complain way too much and get easily irritated. You know what I'm saying?
Andddd.. they're all so cuteeeeee! Oh I'm in love!
Pastu, yang ni paling precious! Baby pipi labuh!!!
I'm seriously gonna miss Paediatrics. Walaupun patient exam and written exam susah gilaaaaa, tapi Paeds memang best! :D Ohhh my patient exam went well I think. The doctors (yep, there were two consultant doctors examining me at the same time) were satisfied with me. I think la. Hahahha.. Whatever. Hoepfully lulus dengan warna terbang la. Oh berangan lalala~
My next posting is gonna be *drumrolls* Obstetrics & Gynecology! Dunno what to expect but from what I can see, it's gonna be a lot more tiring compared to Paeds. Tidur konfem tak cukup beb! So, tidurlah dengan banyak sebelum posting bermula yeahhhh!
Overall, Paediatrics is exciting and fun! I love it. Really. Previously, my view towards Paeds was like...blearghhh. To be honest, I had once dreamt of becoming a Paedatrician and it was all because of this one Paeds doctor whom I was very fond of. When I was a kid, I always had to go and meet him due to my severe asthma condition. He treated me so well that I kinda idolized him (mind you, I was only 6 back then!). Pastu bila dah besaq sikit, rasa cam tak suka budak-budak so I swore I didn't want to become a Paediatrician. But who knows suddenly suka Paeds plak. Kids...they're so pure and innocent! They don't lie. They cry, they tell us the truth when they are hurt or in pain. But adults? They lie most of the time. Geriatric patients? They complain way too much and get easily irritated. You know what I'm saying?
Andddd.. they're all so cuteeeeee! Oh I'm in love!
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| During one of my night duties! There were two Caesarean sections and four normal deliveries! (eh, ni bukan delivery Mekdi or KFC kay. =P) |
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| So cute right? Rasa cam nak cubit, gigit arghhhh |
My next posting is gonna be *drumrolls* Obstetrics & Gynecology! Dunno what to expect but from what I can see, it's gonna be a lot more tiring compared to Paeds. Tidur konfem tak cukup beb! So, tidurlah dengan banyak sebelum posting bermula yeahhhh!
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| Fuuhhhh say whattttt~! Nampak tak buku merah tu? Baru ilmu kebidanan. Belum lagi ilmu kandungan tauuu. Beza dia kebidanan dengan kandungan? Tatau la lalala. |
Friday, September 30, 2011
Masih ada yang peduli
Hari ini jadual seperti biasa di Rumah Sakit Umum Pusat Nasional Dr. Cipto Mangunkusumo (okay, cuba sebut laju-laju muahaha!). Dari pukul 9-12pm, pergi Poli Umum Anak. Pasien pertama masuk. Seorang anak laki-laki berusia 8 tahun. Baju compang camping dan kotor. Dari segi luaran, nampak anak ni tak terurus. Tapi bila tengok orang yang bawa dia ke Poli, smart habis cam nak pegi kantor (pejabat).
Bila dah start anamnesis, ternyata orang yang bawa anak malang ini ialah orang yang lalu lalang di tepi jalan. 2 minggu yang lalu, anak tersebut telah terlindas mobil di kaki kirinya (kaki kiri kena gilis kereta). Dibawa ke rumah sakit yang namanya dirahsiakan dan di situ, dia hanya menerima perawatan luka SAHAJA. Okay, what in the world were they thinking?? (oh, terEnglish la pulokkk hahaha). Maksud saya, dari history-taking je dah tau anak ni kaki dia tergilis kereta. What do you expect? Takde pulak nak suspect fracture? Maybe they didn't even do any physical examination on this poor kid. Range of motion sangat terbatas. Dorsoflexion extension, eversion dan inversion tidak dapat dilakukan. Tapi mungkin orang yang langgar anak ini hanya nak cover expenses for basic treatment je. Yelah, radiology mahal dan tiada siapa nak tanggung. But supposedly, the culprit that ran over him should be the one to blame. He should have covered all the medical expenses needed.
Setelah menerima perawatan, anak ni pulang ke rumah seperti biasa. Turns out that both of his parents died a few years ago. Meninggal sebab Tuberculosis dan HIV. Sekarang tinggal bersama nenek dan dua orang adiknya. Adik kedua, takde cerita. Adik ketiga, dah kena HIV. Yang abangnya ni pulak, ada Tuberculosis paru. But the doctor decided not to give any treatment due to low compliance which the child will later on develop resistant TB.
Part yang paling sedih bila nenek anak ini cam buat endah tak endah. Luka di kaki masih belum sembuh dan sudah ada secondary infection. Bila disuruh cucunya jangan mengamen (minta derma di jalanan) sebelum kakinya sembuh, dia siap boleh cakap "Habis, kalau ga ngamen, emang saya mau makan apa?". Dammit nenek. Can't you see this poor child suffering?? He couldn't even walk properly for God's sake! Dari gaya percakapan, ternyata nenek ni hanya ingin dengan dunianya sendiri. She looks properly dressed tapi cucu-cucunya.... (fill in the blank yourself)
Saya sungguh terharu dengan wanita muda berbaju merah tadi. She was just an outsider (not a social worker, mind you!) who happened to meet the child by the roadside, limping. Waktu cuci luka tadi, walaupun sakit, anak tersebut tidak sedikit pun menangis. He was strong. Wanita tadi siap memeluk anak tersebut supaya menahan kesakitan. Sekali tengok, serious, rasa macam wanita tersebut menganggap itu anaknya. She hopes to get the child a foster home and has everything in planning. Sebelum ini, memang gadis inilah yang mengambil berat tentang apa yang berlaku kat anak ini dan adik-adiknya. I was amazed, mesmerized by the kindness shown. She's young and so pure at heart.
This reminds me to show more empathy to every patient that comes to see me. Tak kisahlah taraf ekonomi dia tapi even words could make a person happier. Lepas ni, kalau tengok ada anak yang mengamen, for sure akan ingat kat anak ni. :') To that unknown lady, thanks for the life lesson. I promise that I would be a good doctor one day. ^___^
Ps. Mannnn.. I should have written everything in English. So messed up!
Bila dah start anamnesis, ternyata orang yang bawa anak malang ini ialah orang yang lalu lalang di tepi jalan. 2 minggu yang lalu, anak tersebut telah terlindas mobil di kaki kirinya (kaki kiri kena gilis kereta). Dibawa ke rumah sakit yang namanya dirahsiakan dan di situ, dia hanya menerima perawatan luka SAHAJA. Okay, what in the world were they thinking?? (oh, terEnglish la pulokkk hahaha). Maksud saya, dari history-taking je dah tau anak ni kaki dia tergilis kereta. What do you expect? Takde pulak nak suspect fracture? Maybe they didn't even do any physical examination on this poor kid. Range of motion sangat terbatas. Dorsoflexion extension, eversion dan inversion tidak dapat dilakukan. Tapi mungkin orang yang langgar anak ini hanya nak cover expenses for basic treatment je. Yelah, radiology mahal dan tiada siapa nak tanggung. But supposedly, the culprit that ran over him should be the one to blame. He should have covered all the medical expenses needed.
Setelah menerima perawatan, anak ni pulang ke rumah seperti biasa. Turns out that both of his parents died a few years ago. Meninggal sebab Tuberculosis dan HIV. Sekarang tinggal bersama nenek dan dua orang adiknya. Adik kedua, takde cerita. Adik ketiga, dah kena HIV. Yang abangnya ni pulak, ada Tuberculosis paru. But the doctor decided not to give any treatment due to low compliance which the child will later on develop resistant TB.
Part yang paling sedih bila nenek anak ini cam buat endah tak endah. Luka di kaki masih belum sembuh dan sudah ada secondary infection. Bila disuruh cucunya jangan mengamen (minta derma di jalanan) sebelum kakinya sembuh, dia siap boleh cakap "Habis, kalau ga ngamen, emang saya mau makan apa?". Dammit nenek. Can't you see this poor child suffering?? He couldn't even walk properly for God's sake! Dari gaya percakapan, ternyata nenek ni hanya ingin dengan dunianya sendiri. She looks properly dressed tapi cucu-cucunya.... (fill in the blank yourself)
Saya sungguh terharu dengan wanita muda berbaju merah tadi. She was just an outsider (not a social worker, mind you!) who happened to meet the child by the roadside, limping. Waktu cuci luka tadi, walaupun sakit, anak tersebut tidak sedikit pun menangis. He was strong. Wanita tadi siap memeluk anak tersebut supaya menahan kesakitan. Sekali tengok, serious, rasa macam wanita tersebut menganggap itu anaknya. She hopes to get the child a foster home and has everything in planning. Sebelum ini, memang gadis inilah yang mengambil berat tentang apa yang berlaku kat anak ini dan adik-adiknya. I was amazed, mesmerized by the kindness shown. She's young and so pure at heart.
This reminds me to show more empathy to every patient that comes to see me. Tak kisahlah taraf ekonomi dia tapi even words could make a person happier. Lepas ni, kalau tengok ada anak yang mengamen, for sure akan ingat kat anak ni. :') To that unknown lady, thanks for the life lesson. I promise that I would be a good doctor one day. ^___^
Ps. Mannnn.. I should have written everything in English. So messed up!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
I iz bz
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| Me in my oncall uniform for Paeds posting! ^__^ |
Mannn.. I didn't even sleep a wink last night. There were 6 old patients, 3 new patients. One case was brought to the resuscitation unit as a precaution measurement. She came with a sudden severe dyspnea and was diagnosed with heart failure ec chronic rheumatic heart disease with severe mitral regurgitation. Thrill was clearly seen and the murmur was loudly hurt. It was of grade 6, I think.. Since they were no medical students cuurrently posted at the Anesthesiology department, I had to monitor the patient cautiously throughout the night. Thank God she did not have to be resuscitated. :')
And so I went back to the hostel and slept till 7pm. (╥﹏╥) I need to get used to this since I'm gonna live like this for at least the next 30 years. O.o
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Monday, August 22, 2011
Day #1 of Paeds posting
Selamat kembali ke sekolah! Hari ni first day of Paediatrics posting. I was not fully prepared for this day actually. Flipped a few pages of my precious Lissauer's Paeds book and went to bed straight away. Haha. My first day started with an introduction lecture, continued with General Overview of what Paeds is all about. Biasalah, kalau lecture ni memang selalu boring. Dok lah bersengkang mata dan mendengar dengan teliti apa yang disampaikan.
Lepas lecture, kita orang disajikan dengan bedside teaching, my favourite way of learning since I get to concentrate more on what is being delivered to me. Yelah. Takkan nak slack sebab consultant akan betul-betul mengadap kita and ajar satu persatu. But actually scary jugaklah sebab selalunya akan kena attack with questions questions questions! There was one question that I managed to answer correctly but the doctor didn't hear me I guess. He was asking the importance of knowing the gender of the child. And I answered hemophilia, which is a sex-linked blood disorder, predominantly in male patients. Tapi doctor tak dengar sebab bila orang sebelah jawab hemophilia, dia kena puji. Tak aci. Tiruuuu jawapan gua. Cis tak guna. Haha.
Sangat suka bedside teaching hari ini. Hope I can remember all the theories that I got today for as long as I live. Okay, gila nerd bunyi dia kan. =P Just for a reminder for myself, there are five major causes of pale in children:
Lepas lecture, kita orang disajikan dengan bedside teaching, my favourite way of learning since I get to concentrate more on what is being delivered to me. Yelah. Takkan nak slack sebab consultant akan betul-betul mengadap kita and ajar satu persatu. But actually scary jugaklah sebab selalunya akan kena attack with questions questions questions! There was one question that I managed to answer correctly but the doctor didn't hear me I guess. He was asking the importance of knowing the gender of the child. And I answered hemophilia, which is a sex-linked blood disorder, predominantly in male patients. Tapi doctor tak dengar sebab bila orang sebelah jawab hemophilia, dia kena puji. Tak aci. Tiruuuu jawapan gua. Cis tak guna. Haha.
Sangat suka bedside teaching hari ini. Hope I can remember all the theories that I got today for as long as I live. Okay, gila nerd bunyi dia kan. =P Just for a reminder for myself, there are five major causes of pale in children:
- Aplastic anemia
- Hemolytic anemia
- Iron-deficiency anemia
- Bleeding
- Malignancy (eg. leukemia)
And you know what, that made me realise. You gotta really understand your patients well and in return you should let know the important info that the patients should know. If you don't master the disease, how are you supposed to do that?
Okay, that reminds me to go and study now. Bye!
Saturday, August 20, 2011
It has ended..
What has ended? Remember that workshop thingy that I was talking about? Yep that one! To be honest, the workshop was a total boredom. Practical sessions? Yawnssss. I was the only Malaysian in my group so you can figure out the rest. 14 students each group and out of those, I only know two of them, whom I wasn't very close to. I was so so SO lost. Not to mention my Indonesian is broken. Yes, I've been studying here for 4 years already (a year in Melbourne) but I still could not grasp the language. Urgh.
Gonna start my final year soon. I'm so nervous. But excited. Coz you know what final year means? It means I only have one year left and then I'll be going back home to Malaysia for good! Yessss. I can't freaking wait to get outta here. I sound like I hate staying here, don't I? Well, I do, partially. =/
Gonna start my final year soon. I'm so nervous. But excited. Coz you know what final year means? It means I only have one year left and then I'll be going back home to Malaysia for good! Yessss. I can't freaking wait to get outta here. I sound like I hate staying here, don't I? Well, I do, partially. =/
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| Random photo: Sobs.. (╥﹏╥) My pathetic internet cable. |
Friday, August 19, 2011
Back in Jakarta
Sudah pulang ke Jakarta. Oh benci. my flight to Jakarta was supposed to be on the 21st but I had to attend some workshop shit on the 19th and 20th. Hari pertama penuh dengan talks which were super boring. Had a pre-test before the sessions and post-test after everything has been delivered to us. They told us that if we fail the workshop, we're gonna have to attend again the following week along with our juniors. What the eff. I'm so not gonna go to that shit ever again. urgh.
Tahun ni tak balik raya LAGI. Oh sedih. Last year tak balik sebab ada night shift and busy kena study. The year before, memang takde cuti coz I was in Melbourne. Raya raya raya. Sekarang dah tak berapa nak bermakna buat saya. Oh tapi kalau dapat raya dengan family, still rasa seronok bukan?
This year's raya gonna suck! Raya without family, without my beloved sweetheart. :( Nasib baik kawan-kawan masih ada di sisi. Thanks girls. Ye, girlfriends je. Hahaha. Okeh, kena study for tomorrow's practical sessions. Combine dengan regular class which means, saya seorang je Malaysian dalam kelompok I. Wahhhh. :( Babai!
Tahun ni tak balik raya LAGI. Oh sedih. Last year tak balik sebab ada night shift and busy kena study. The year before, memang takde cuti coz I was in Melbourne. Raya raya raya. Sekarang dah tak berapa nak bermakna buat saya. Oh tapi kalau dapat raya dengan family, still rasa seronok bukan?
This year's raya gonna suck! Raya without family, without my beloved sweetheart. :( Nasib baik kawan-kawan masih ada di sisi. Thanks girls. Ye, girlfriends je. Hahaha. Okeh, kena study for tomorrow's practical sessions. Combine dengan regular class which means, saya seorang je Malaysian dalam kelompok I. Wahhhh. :( Babai!
Monday, July 25, 2011
Streamyx apparently doesn't suck
Yes, you guys read that right. I've been having a chronic condition of Internet-less Syndrome. The symptoms may include persistent pacing back and forth, unnecessary self-ramblings, pointless ranting on being internet-less even though you know you're miles away from home etc etc etc.. okay, I lie booohooo.
I was away from home, balik kampung for about a week. I totally relied on my phone. It's a good thing the reception wasn't so bad even though it was only EDGE. To my surprise, it's even better there compared to my home in Puchong. Dear Celcom, you seriously need to take note that Puchong isn't some hulu place you know. -__-" Well, when I came back, the Internet was so slow that I swear siput babi pun lagi laju kot (nak jugak siput babi hahaha). So I decided to give a call to Telekom (coz my dad refused to do so and I have to do everything). You see, I have a very serious problem with talking to a total stranger on phone. Sangat takut okay. Why? Saya pun tatauuuu~ Camne nak jadi doctor ni HOMAIIGAWDDD.
Bla bla bla with the person on the other end and he asked me to wait for at least 72 hours in order to allow the problem to be solved by the technician. Skali I suddenly got an unknown call a few minutes after the call, turned out to be a TM technician. A few minutes later, sampai rumah. LOL. I totally wasn't expecting that. Super-duper fast! The technician, blehh, he didn't talk much so yeah I'm cool. Apparently, the modem was faulty so there's no problem with the cable etc etc at all.
TM technican: Kak, SSID ngan password for wireless ape ek? (lebih kurang la ayat dia)
Me: *just walked away*
TM technician: Err.. *turned to my dad, asking the same question*
Sorry la pakcik. Tak perasan la your question. Hahaha. Panggil lagi saya kak. Sensitif. Tak kira la pape. Sebab awak nampak cam lagi tua dari saya wekkk! I would rather be called "Cik" instead of kak. I don't care but when you're in my house, you follow MY rules. muahaha~ okay, terlebih plak. So yeah, despite the unpleasing incidence, I'm very satisfied with the service. Everything was solved in less than 2 hours I think (from the moment I made that call). So, YAY TELEKOM! :D Nah amek muka saya happy woot woot!
Ps. I managed to do the intubation TWICE. The first attempt was assisted by a PPDS doctor (anaesthesiologsit-to-be), the second one was performed all by myself without any assistance. It was for my airway examination anyway so no matter what, I needed to do it right! :D
I was away from home, balik kampung for about a week. I totally relied on my phone. It's a good thing the reception wasn't so bad even though it was only EDGE. To my surprise, it's even better there compared to my home in Puchong. Dear Celcom, you seriously need to take note that Puchong isn't some hulu place you know. -__-" Well, when I came back, the Internet was so slow that I swear siput babi pun lagi laju kot (nak jugak siput babi hahaha). So I decided to give a call to Telekom (coz my dad refused to do so and I have to do everything). You see, I have a very serious problem with talking to a total stranger on phone. Sangat takut okay. Why? Saya pun tatauuuu~ Camne nak jadi doctor ni HOMAIIGAWDDD.
Bla bla bla with the person on the other end and he asked me to wait for at least 72 hours in order to allow the problem to be solved by the technician. Skali I suddenly got an unknown call a few minutes after the call, turned out to be a TM technician. A few minutes later, sampai rumah. LOL. I totally wasn't expecting that. Super-duper fast! The technician, blehh, he didn't talk much so yeah I'm cool. Apparently, the modem was faulty so there's no problem with the cable etc etc at all.
TM technican: Kak, SSID ngan password for wireless ape ek? (lebih kurang la ayat dia)
Me: *just walked away*
TM technician: Err.. *turned to my dad, asking the same question*
Sorry la pakcik. Tak perasan la your question. Hahaha. Panggil lagi saya kak. Sensitif. Tak kira la pape. Sebab awak nampak cam lagi tua dari saya wekkk! I would rather be called "Cik" instead of kak. I don't care but when you're in my house, you follow MY rules. muahaha~ okay, terlebih plak. So yeah, despite the unpleasing incidence, I'm very satisfied with the service. Everything was solved in less than 2 hours I think (from the moment I made that call). So, YAY TELEKOM! :D Nah amek muka saya happy woot woot!
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| Before entering the operation theater during my Anaesthesiology posting. Seronok cucuk-cucuk and pengsankan orang lol JK! It's a very dangerous task people! |
Ps. I managed to do the intubation TWICE. The first attempt was assisted by a PPDS doctor (anaesthesiologsit-to-be), the second one was performed all by myself without any assistance. It was for my airway examination anyway so no matter what, I needed to do it right! :D
Monday, June 6, 2011
This is depressing
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| Hai. Siapa nak berkenalan dengan makhluk ini angkat kepala cepat! |
22 Augustus 2011
(Augustus = August = Ogos)
Seriously horror gilaaaaa.. Raya 31 August and start kelas 22 August. It's only freaking one week! Dan yang lebih bestnye, that is applicable for clinical students ONLY (5th and final year students). Those budak hingusan tahun 1, 2 dan 3 (tahun ke 4 di Melbourne so biaq pi kat depa ah) akan libur sampai 12 September 2011. Sungguhlah tak adil! I mean come on! It's been 2 years kot raya kat luar Malaysia. This is my last chance to celebrate raya as a student. Oklah. Gonna get back to work. Buah hati cinta pengarang jantung research yang ku sayang. T_T
Ps. Cakap pun dah tak nyambung. Wuddeheck.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Lazy days shall end now
Coz I'm gonna start attending for lectures, discussion, and presentations of the first module of my last two subjects for my 5th year tomorrow! I had been waking up late during this one-week break. I should have flown back to Malaysia coz I haven't been doing much for my thesis during the break. It breaks the purpose of me staying here in this freaking place. Urghhh!I thought I was gonna be diligently writing my thesis if I were to stay here since there's gonna be less distraction but oh boy how wrong I was! I'm gonna kill myself now bye!
Anyway, changed my blog name coz the previous one is kinda lame? I dunno. I think I should not be using the word divine coz it might be misleading ya know. Oh well, if you don't then that's okay coz I'm talking crap right now. Haha.
Mind you, it has nothing related to the word "disco". Disco as in going to clubs, clubbing, etc. It's actually a medical term. The correct term should be discogenic pain which implies pain that originates from interverbal disks. The pain could be either on the back or at the neck area, depending on which interverbal disks that are affected (cervical, thoracal, lumbar, sacral, coccygeal). Other definitions:
dis·co·gen·ic (d
s
k
-j
n
k)
....
Anyway, changed my blog name coz the previous one is kinda lame? I dunno. I think I should not be using the word divine coz it might be misleading ya know. Oh well, if you don't then that's okay coz I'm talking crap right now. Haha.
Discogenic Thoughts
Mind you, it has nothing related to the word "disco". Disco as in going to clubs, clubbing, etc. It's actually a medical term. The correct term should be discogenic pain which implies pain that originates from interverbal disks. The pain could be either on the back or at the neck area, depending on which interverbal disks that are affected (cervical, thoracal, lumbar, sacral, coccygeal). Other definitions:
dis·co·gen·ic (d
sk-jnk)adj.
Relating to a disorder originating in or from an intervertebral disk.
discogenic [dis″ko-jen´ik]
caused by derangement of an intervertebral disk.
So, when putting discogenic and thoughts together, it means that my thoughts are always deranged....? Haha. Okay, this is getting lame. Pardon me for having lame blog names. Lame is my middle name. Haha. Okay, I should stop now. Need to sleep early since I'm gonna have to wake up early tomorrow woot woot! Goodnight!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
End of 5th year clinical rotation
Had my Ophthalmology finals today. Man, it was rather nerve-wrecking. The exam was supposed to be yesterday actually. I was given a patient with immature senile cataract in the right eye and post-cataract surgery with intraocular lens in the left eye. The patient had to bear with me for the whole 2 hours! I did history-taking, ophthalmological examination and a complete medical record. Yes, I made the diagnosis myself and my by-sitter wasn't being helpful either. It was an easy case thank God. It would be difficult if I were to get cases such as retinopathy or infections. But apparently, my patient did have hypertension so there is still possibility of her having hypertensive retinopathy. Not to mention, her intraocular pressure was slightly higher (21.9 mmHg) in the right eye with a huge difference between both eyes (9 mmHg in the fellow eye). I still need to rule out Chronic Glaucoma then.
Sorry for all the medical terms used. Well, the exam went pretty well I think. Though I had to wait like for almost 3 and a half hours! My by-sitter (an Ophthal resident) was supposed to let me know the exam was gonna start at 11am instead of 8am but she didn't! I ended up waiting for her like a fool. -___-" It wouldn't hurt to let me know, would it? She even replied my message with an "OK". I seriously hate that two-letter word as a reply. I thought I was going insane. Urghhh..
Anyway, the consultant was nice though most of the time she had this scary look on her face. Idk. She looked like she was gonna eat me anytime soon. lol. But it turned out that she was superrr nice! She didn't even smile when I entered the exam room, making me nervous like hell! But as the exam went along, I was able to relax a bit. She seemed to be satisfied with my answers. Well, of course there were questions I wasn't able to answer but heck yeah. It was supposed to be that way anyway. What do you guys expect from a 2-week worth of experience?
I'm guessing the prognosis for my exam today was dubia ad bonam. I can't be sure I'm gonna get good grade anyway. Clinical years are so unpredictable. The scoring and everything are so subjective and luck plays a big role here. You see, there are many types of examiner that I have encountered. Some would give you like killer questions and would give good score if you're able to answer them. Some would ask something that is totally non-medical-related and usually you won't be able to answer them. Some give simple questions but the score would be low even you can answer them all correctly. And some even...
feels happy whenever you can't answer their questions. Yes. I'm telling you the truth.
Gahhh.. See what I mean? Oh yeah, you know those professors?? Even worse. Sometimes I just don't get the questions. I didn't know what they wanted and they didn't get what I was trying to say. Haha..
Conclusion: It might just be a matter of bad communication or they're just too smart. -__-" Oh, or rather, I'm just too stupid to understand them. HAHA.
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Sorry for all the medical terms used. Well, the exam went pretty well I think. Though I had to wait like for almost 3 and a half hours! My by-sitter (an Ophthal resident) was supposed to let me know the exam was gonna start at 11am instead of 8am but she didn't! I ended up waiting for her like a fool. -___-" It wouldn't hurt to let me know, would it? She even replied my message with an "OK". I seriously hate that two-letter word as a reply. I thought I was going insane. Urghhh..
Anyway, the consultant was nice though most of the time she had this scary look on her face. Idk. She looked like she was gonna eat me anytime soon. lol. But it turned out that she was superrr nice! She didn't even smile when I entered the exam room, making me nervous like hell! But as the exam went along, I was able to relax a bit. She seemed to be satisfied with my answers. Well, of course there were questions I wasn't able to answer but heck yeah. It was supposed to be that way anyway. What do you guys expect from a 2-week worth of experience?
I'm guessing the prognosis for my exam today was dubia ad bonam. I can't be sure I'm gonna get good grade anyway. Clinical years are so unpredictable. The scoring and everything are so subjective and luck plays a big role here. You see, there are many types of examiner that I have encountered. Some would give you like killer questions and would give good score if you're able to answer them. Some would ask something that is totally non-medical-related and usually you won't be able to answer them. Some give simple questions but the score would be low even you can answer them all correctly. And some even...
feels happy whenever you can't answer their questions. Yes. I'm telling you the truth.
Gahhh.. See what I mean? Oh yeah, you know those professors?? Even worse. Sometimes I just don't get the questions. I didn't know what they wanted and they didn't get what I was trying to say. Haha..
Conclusion: It might just be a matter of bad communication or they're just too smart. -__-" Oh, or rather, I'm just too stupid to understand them. HAHA.
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