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Sunday, October 30, 2011

Weird people

I got bored (though I was supposed to start studying ObsGyn) and so I rewatched Ryan Higa's videos on Youtube. I could never get tired of his vids like.. seriously? Hehe~ There was this one video where he ranted on Weird People.

"A world without weird people is like vanilla ice cream without the sprinkles..- Ryan Higa"
 I'm weird and I'm proud to be one. I bring sprinkles to vanilla ice cream yawww! =p

Weirdos acting weird lol~ I love how my mom managed to squeeze in between us. =p Yes, my little sister was wearing my convocation robe! Hahaha..
Ps. Starting my ObsGyn posting tomorrow. OSCE and MCQ on Thursday. DAYYUM HOW MANY DAYS LEFT, TELL ME?
Pps. Does Ryan Higa really have ADHD?

Saturday, October 29, 2011

That's not how you do it..

Previously, there was this blogger who commented on my shoutbox. Saying how cute my blog is yadda yadda yadda. As a token of appreciation (takbleh blahhh ahh ayat), I paid a visit to her blog, thanking her for liking my blog. But then, I realised something was wrong with all the other comments on her shoutbox. Everyone else was thanking her for saying how "cute" their blogs were. Out of curiosity, I went to their blogs (homaigawddd takde keje dah ke Mira? -__-"). I found out that this particular blogger actually left the exact same message on everyone else's shoutbox.

Babe, that's not how you gain followers. I mean, it might actually work if you wanted to increase your blog traffic but gaining loyal readers? I don't think so. I sorta got hurt actually. Haha.. Perasan je ada orang suka kat blog saya yang sememeh ni. -__-" I normally don't comment but I do have exceptions eg. interesting posts, my friends' blogs, etc. Saya sukaaa blogwalking tapi jarang sekali meningggalkan jejak. Sebab tu blog ni cam rumah kosong jek. Whatever. I just don't care. This blog is random and I don't want to be restricted to writing certain stuff only just to ensure people keep reading my blog. I don't write for others. I write for myself.

Okay, gila selfish bunyi dia and self-centered.  Hahaha..

Lagi satu, don't you just loveeeeee when somebody says,

"I dah follow you. Follow me back yea!"

Nak lempang? Korang ingat ada ke orang nak follow kalau camtu? Kalau ada, saya tataulah kan. =P Then, the next second you know, that person already unfollowed your blog sebab tak dilayan. Whattt~? -__-"

Ps. Terkasar pulak. Ampun ye. =p

Friday, October 28, 2011

Goodbye Paediatrics, Hello ObsGyn!

Seperti biasa, before exam berkobar-kobar nak update blog. Bila habis je exam, malas gila nak sentuh blog sebab dapat buat benda lain yang lagi best atau sekadar bermalas-malasan tahap cipan. Hehe.. =P So today marked the end of paediatrics posting! Tak sangka 9 minggu berlalu rasa macam sekejap je. Like, seriously! I didn't feel anything. Time flew way too fast. Tau-tau je dah grad. Pastu balik Malaysia for good chewah! Can't freaking wait for that moment! ^__^

Overall, Paediatrics is exciting and fun! I love it. Really. Previously, my view towards Paeds was like...blearghhh. To be honest, I had once dreamt of becoming a Paedatrician and it was all because of this one Paeds doctor whom I was very fond of. When I was a kid, I always had to go and meet him due to my severe asthma condition. He treated me so well that I kinda idolized him (mind you, I was only 6 back then!). Pastu bila dah besaq sikit, rasa cam tak suka budak-budak so I swore I didn't want to become a Paediatrician. But who knows suddenly suka Paeds plak. Kids...they're so pure and innocent! They don't lie. They cry, they tell us the truth when they are hurt or in pain. But adults? They lie most of the time. Geriatric patients? They complain way too much and get easily irritated. You know what I'm saying?

Andddd.. they're all so cuteeeeee! Oh I'm in love!

During one of my night duties! There were two Caesarean sections and four normal deliveries! (eh, ni bukan delivery Mekdi or KFC kay. =P)
 Pastu, yang ni paling precious! Baby pipi labuh!!!

So cute right? Rasa cam nak cubit, gigit arghhhh
I'm seriously gonna miss Paediatrics. Walaupun patient exam and written exam susah gilaaaaa, tapi Paeds memang best! :D Ohhh my patient exam went well I think. The doctors (yep, there were two consultant doctors examining me at the same time) were satisfied with me. I think la. Hahahha.. Whatever. Hoepfully lulus dengan warna terbang la. Oh berangan lalala~

My next posting is gonna be *drumrolls* Obstetrics & Gynecology! Dunno what to expect but from what I can see, it's gonna be a lot more tiring compared to Paeds. Tidur konfem tak cukup beb! So, tidurlah dengan banyak sebelum posting bermula yeahhhh!

Fuuhhhh say whattttt~! Nampak tak buku merah tu? Baru ilmu kebidanan. Belum lagi ilmu kandungan tauuu. Beza dia kebidanan dengan kandungan? Tatau la lalala.

Monday, October 24, 2011

I'm dying

STUDYING =
STUDENT + DYING

Get it? T___T

Ps. Having patient exam tomorrow at 6am-12pm. Wish me luck! Dear consultants and patient, please be good to me. (:

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Thanks love


 Thanks for cheering me up yesterday. I was down all day so I couldn't really concentrate on my revision. Now that you've given me the strength to continue what I'm doing, I shall strive for the best and never give up. Thanks love

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Black clouds over my head

Yet again! When will this ever end? :(
Had my Paediatrics end-posting written exam yesterday and I think I did pretty bad. The questions were not repeated from the past years' and most of them, I would say..ambiguous? It's like all of the answers are correct but choosing the most appropriate one is a pain in the ass. And excuse mehhh, answering all 80 questions within 80 minutes is a challenge coz the questions were very long and for every 3-4 questions, there were case illustrations. So I had to just skim the questions or else I wouldn't have time to answer the rest of the paper. The probability of me leaving out crucial info was BIG so I guess that's why I messed up so badly.

Before the exam itself, I cried my heart out. I was told that we had to wear long-sleeved white coat or else we wouldn't be allowed to sit for the exam. Stress lagi! Kenapa la Paeds ni so skema sangat? Grrr.. So I had to call my friends from ObGyn to borrow theirs. Nasib baik ada kawan. :') But pastu barulah perasan ada beberapa orang pakai the short-sleeved ones and the doctor did not say anything!! Haihhh. Penat-penat berlari all the way from IRJ to Gedung A tauuu. Maybe it was just me being paranoid. Haihhh. -___-"

Pastukan, there's this one Paeds resident whom I had my night duty with THREE WEEKS AGO. YEP. And she suddenly asked for me! So I called her up and asking what is going on. She wouldn't tell me the details and COMMANDED me to meet her on Monday at 9am. And I'm having my patient exam on Tuesday! Cukup-cukuplah dokter seksa diri saya nie! Masa jaga malam hari tu, tak cukup lagi ke? Bagging for 2 hours straight, ran up and down between the 1st and 2nd floor, went back and forth between the emergency unit and the pharmacy, etc, etc. Pastu tak cukup lagi I got scolded by the consultant and when it was clearly your fault?

SCREW YOU!

Ps. Untuk adik-adik yang belum masuk clinical year, yep,clinical year is a living hell for us. I'm telling you the truth.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Have a Facebook?


Have a Facebook? Want to creep yourself out? Click here!

I'm telling you this is the scariest shit that I've ever seen. Well, I didn't actually watch it until the end. If only the guy looked less creepy, I would have watched it until the end. Grrrr~ Need someone to watch this together. Call me scaredy-cat all you want coz I am one! -___-"

Oh, let me know how it goes if you actually managed to go through the video till the very end. =p

Monday, October 17, 2011

The world is cruel

I bet most of you guys have seen this video and seriously, I find it very VERY disturbing. How can humankind be so heartless? Check out the video below.



Here's an excerpt from a news article:

A two-year-old toddler was run over by two vans and mortally wounded, after which 18 people passed her indifferently in south China's Guangdong Province.

Thanks to the 19th passer-by, a woman garbage collector who came to her aid about seven minutes after the first hit, the girl didn't die immediately in last Thursday's incident. But doctors said the girl died yesterday from severe brain injuries she had suffered in the accident.

Police have detained both drivers.

After the surveillance video of the incident was put online yesterday, many netizens condemned the 18 passers-by who could have helped the girl avoid the second accident. The case was the latest to bring home the question of whether people today are too cold-blooded to help, or whether it's smart to stay away from an accident to avoid the chance of being accused of responsibility by the victim.

The girl, identified by her parents as Yueyue, was knocked down by a van about 5:30pm last Thursday, when walking alone in a hardware wholesaling market in the city of Foshan. The car driver stopped for a while after the front wheel rolled over the girl. But he sped away soon and the rear wheel crushed her again.

A witness walked around the girl lying on the narrow street without stopping, the surveillance camera showed. Then a biker and a pedestrian passed her but ignored the girl struggling in a pool of blood.

A second van driver, who didn't see the girl, crushed her again and fled the scene. After the second hit, Yueyue became motionless.

Over the ensuing five minutes, 15 people passed her and each of them just took a look. None stopped to lend a hand.  Then finally, about seven minutes after the girl was hit by the first van, the trash collector came to her aid. She rushed to help her sit up but Yueyue was paralyzed. So the woman moved her from the middle of the street to the side. She yelled for help and Yueyue's mother came and held her daughter in her arms.

Yueyue was rushed to the General Hospital of Guangzhou Military Command, where she remained in the intensive care unit until she died yesterday afternoon.

"She couldn't breathe on her own," said Wen Qiang, deputy director of the ICU department.

The incident is the latest example of passers-by acting indifferently to victims injured in crimes. In this case, some blamed the parents for letting the girl walk on the street alone. More criticized the phenomenon of people passing by without helping, caused at least in part by previous extortion attempts from the injured and their families who have sometimes tried to blame the person helping.

She got run over by a van and a truck, TWICE! The first van ran over her twice (front and rear wheels) so that makes it three times?  Humankind much? I don't think so! May that poor little girl rest in peace..

Thursday, October 13, 2011

20 reasons why you should date a doctor


Ps. Just so you know, I'm not promoting myself anyway. I'm single but not available. *winks*
Pps. Some of the facts are not true actually. Just don't take this seriously. xD

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

5 Simple Rules for Happiness

1) Free your heart from hatred.
2) Free your mind from worries.
3) Live simply.
4) Give more.
5) Expect less.


I seriously need to hold onto these rules. Dark clouds have been hanging over my head for the past few weeks.


On a brighter note, I can't wait to see you love ! :)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Why Malaysian Gov Can't Retain Its Doctors

Found this on Facebook and apparently it was published on TheStar Online. Couldn't agree more. The article is soooo good, I swear! For doctors-to-be, read on!

Why we left and why we will continue to leave...
Posted by: MS Mohamad


I read an interesting article today about a few prominent figures addressing their concern over the increasing UKM and UM medical graduates who have left the country to continue their medical practice overseas.

After reading the news for 3 times, I called a very close friend, an MD (UKM) graduate to ask his opinion on how the news might have affected him. He has been working in Singapore for more than a decade as a Consultant Surgeon with a certain sub-specialty

"Why be a slave in your own country, when you are a king in another?" He replied.

Indeed, if anybody would want to find a reason why all of us left, either after housemanship, after being a specialist, or even after sub specializing, and now, even prior to doing housemanship, they need not look at our payslip, or the wealth that we have gained overseas, but only to the Medical System that has been rotting in the ignorance and politic-based stupidity that Malaysia has been well-known for (in the medical field).

I have served the system for nearly 2 decades of my career, waiting for it to improve for so long, and only finding myself in despair, quitting with a 24-hour notice and serving abroad. The system is, in my opinion, keeping doctors, since the beginning of their career as House Officers to the end of it, in the lowermost priority. When I was working there, doctors are so ill-treated, while the nurses and the medical assistants are overpowering us.

I still remember the days when I was doing seeing patients and rounds as an MO, while the staff nurses would mind their own business, having breakfast in the pantry, or having gossip chats at their own leisure. My House Officers would then have to do merely all the labour-work, up to the extent of setting intravenous drips, and serving medications. If I am to expect the nurses, my patients would have been dead, or the work would have been too slowly or incompletely done. When I was a House Officer, I had to run down 4-5 floors just to review a blood investigation of a dying dengue patient. The ward staff would either be nowhere around, or will say that he is busy (busier than the doctor?) or the answer I got at that time:

"Doktor nak cepat, doktor turun sendirilah, gaji doktor lagi banyak dari saya"

Even when I was a Specialist, the staff nurses had to be called again and again just to make sure the management plan for the patient would be done. I was already used to answers from them:

“I’m busy with something else"

“My shift is already over"

...it was routine for me.

The Medical Assistants were worse. They would hide behind their so-called boss, the Head of Medical Assistant. They feel hiding behind him would make them not under our jurisdiction, that we have no power to instruct them in managing the patient, that they have power to manage own their own. I've seen them giving medications not as we prescribed, performing procedures without our knowledge, as if they are the actual "Doctors". They are in their own world, and we have to do their job, taking blood, labelling samples, and even cleaning gadgets from the procedures that we have done.

Oh, but the ministry loves this group. They even let them run a clinic now, instead of upgrading the clinics already run by doctors. The government feels that the MAs are very important and should never be ill-treated by those big bad doctors. One time when I was a District Hospital Medical Officer, I was conducting a delivery of a baby. An MA insisted that I remove my car which was block-parking his car. I answered through the phone that I was busy. He came to the labor room and yelled "Semua orang pun sibuk jugak, macamlah doktor seorang yang sibuk!”

It is insulting that an MA or a staff nurse claims that they are BUSY, as busy as a doctor? As a Malaysian Doctor, I have even worked for 72 hours straight. I have experienced working until my 6 month old daughter did not recognize me at the end of the week. Is that how busy they are? I am very sure that they are so busy, that they can only spend 2 hours at the nearby Mamak stall, or can only leave at 5:10 PM instead of 5, or can only have 1 hour of lunch.

The management staffs are worse. I have to beg and plead so that I can get my on-call claims, of RM25 per 48 hours of work. While sitting in an air-conditioned office, they will at their own leisure, process my call claims so that I will receive them by the next decade.

The state health or Hospital Director would just give another inspirational talk (of bollocks) on team effort and beauty of teamwork.

That is how Malaysian doctors are treated in the government sector: without respect, without dignity and without significance. Why?

It is because we are bound by ethics to try our best to save lives, despite how ill-treated we are. We hardly have time to complaint because we are too busy or tired, and we would rather spend the precious time resting or seeing our loved ones. The burden of trying to save lives is on our shoulders alone. No MAs or Staff nurses would shoulder it with us. They have their own bosses: the Sisters, Matrons, or Head of MAs, which job description is to ensure that the big bad doctors will not ask their underlings to do extra work.

This is how the Malaysian Ministry of Health have treated their doctors. I am very sure that in each and every doctor, there is a slowly-burning patience in serving the Malaysian people, which will eventually fade and cause them to surrender to serving a place that treats them better.
A few colleagues who graduated from UK choose to serve there:

"The pay is more, and we get the respect we deserve"

Another works in Brunei:

“Here the staff nurses respect Malaysian doctors, and they are very co-operative" (He ended up marrying one)

A few are consultants in Singapore (working with me):

"Here we are treated well, we spearhead the management, and every else do their work to the best of their capabilities".

A few even enjoys working in Indonesia:

“The work-load is horrible since there are a lot of patients, but we are well respected by every hospital personnel" (They have migrated there for nearly a decade)

I am sure that people will see doctors as power-hungry individuals who want to be the boss in the hospital. Trust me, after having graduated 6-7 years of medical school, earning a DEGREE, and subsequently MASTERS, and SUBSPECIALITY, you would expect a degree of respect and being considered important. We are trying our best to improve patient's quality of life, or making sure he lives another day. Is it too much to ask from the system that we are important?

I find that Malaysia is the only country that is making doctors' lives miserable and treated like rubbish. It was never about the pay in the first place. It is about the treatment we are getting and the false political-based promises. Do you know that the so-called circular about doctors can have the day off after working 24 hours straight released JULY 2009 is not yet implemented? Do you know that the raise of UD 41 to 44 does not involve every doctor in the government service?

We are waiting for improvement. We have waited a long time when we were working in the system. Somewhere along the line we decided to leave and wait outside the system. Until the system changes, we will continue to work overseas, in countries which are appreciative of us. Trust me, Malaysian-graduate doctors are considered highly skilful and competent in neighbouring countries, and the 15 % brain drain is more significant than you think.

We will return when the system prioritize us and gives us the quality of life we deserve.
If it stays the same, Malaysian Hospitals would end up having Staff nurses and Medical Assistants as "Doctors", and we would have to send patients to Indonesia for an appendicectomy.

Hear our voice. We hardly speak, but will usually fade away from conflict (and fly to another place).

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It was a good reading, aye?

There's a reason why I hate nurses. They might have more experience than us, young doctors. Yes you do but we freaking studied for 6 years long before we can start working. But is it too much to ask to respect us as we respect them? We make more money? That's just bullshit if you wanna compare with the workload that we have to endure.

And oh yeah, one more thing. STOP BLOODY TELLING ME how I should be grateful for bla bla bla. When I said I was being treated like a slave during my night shifts at the hospital, I wasn't kidding. Doing all those stuff that was meant for others neither helps me nor the patients. I'm in my learning phase so I need to learn as much as I can so that I can save more lives. So don't tell me you understand what I'm going through coz you have NO BLOODY IDEA what it is like.

Ps. Emo again? Dang it.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Takut tapi..

Saya takut nak exam. Exam lagi dua minggu. Tapi saya malas sejak akhir-akhir ni. Pegang buku sekejap pastu the next thing I know, my head is already on the desk. Sindrom sebab dah banyak sangat study kah? Definitely not sebab saya rasa otak saya masih kosong macam tin kosong "klunk klunk klunk". Tak sangka dah masuk minggu ketujuh Paediatrics posting. Written exam on 22nd pastu patient exam on the 25th.

Huaaa.. Nak jawab exam pakai ape nanti? Otak saya? Luck? T____T

Study oi study Mira! Good grades tak datang dari langit macam tu je.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Menjengkelkan

Nak tau tak benda apa yang paling menjengkelkan kat dunia ni at this moment? (menjengkelkan = irritating)

KOSAN SAYA (my hostel)

Like seriously, tak habis-habis ada problem. Bayar bukannya murah tapi more than half of my monthly allowance kot. The monthly rent is the only sole reason that has been making me "papa kedana" for every end of the three-month period. I wanna move out but there's nowhere else I could go. Nak cari kos baru kat sini sangat susah. Kalau ada, sangat mahal sampai lebih dari Rp2 juta. Kalau murah, cam setinggan pulak tapi tak sanggup. T___T Percaya tak living cost kat Jakarta Pusat berkali-kali ganda lebih mahal dari KL tapi JPA tak mau naik-naik allowance pun walaupun dah buat proposal setebal buku Harrison's Internal Medicine. Okay, tipu je tapi seriously, daku terseksa. T___T

Masa mula-mula tinggal kat bilik lama banyak problem. Tiles bilik air kena bongkah sebab katanya air bilik air mengalir ke bilik bawah (likee ewww la kan tapi saya tak jorok so ok kot hahaha) I was the one who had to suffer. Kena mengemis bilik air kat bilik kawan or guna bilik air luar. It's very inconvenient sebab campur laki perempuan so kalau keluar dari bilik kena tutup dari atas sampai bawah. Gila kau pakai towel je? -__-" Fine lah kan. Pastu kena bongkah tiles bilik sebab kata bocor. Tapi benda paling bodoh, source of water dari mana pulak datang?? Don't think it's necessary. Pastu adalah few other problems macam kunci pintu rosak, ceiling bocor air hujan, internet cable cannot be connected yadda yadda.

Disebabkan tak tahan, saya mengambil keputusan untuk pindah kamar dengan harapan bilik tu tak semalang bilik lama. Tapi apakan daya, ternyata bilik baru ni lebih teruk. Tiles kena bongkah lagi? yep. History repeats itself. Gahhhhh~ Hari ni kena bongkah tiles bilik. Pe jadahnyaaaaa?

Nak kasi suggestion boleh? Apa kata just robohkan satu kosan je pastu buat yang baru? Ngeks betol.

Ps. Ya, ini entri emo lagi.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Hottesteu

My bf once told me not to flood my blog with Kpop stuff but I think I've been staying dormant for the past few weeks so I guess it wouldn't hurt to fangirl once in a while, right? Hehe.. ^__^ I still listen to Kpop songs though with less fangirl screaming these days. I consider myself to be a part of 2PM fandom, only Hottests and nothing else. If you happen to have an account on Wild2Day, you may find me here and I'm one of the graphic designers there.

Anyway, 2PM is coming to Jakarta this November and of course I won't be going even though I really wanted to. I don't know any Hottests staying in Jakarta. My friends, they're all somehow hardcore so-called "Coldests" (2PM anti-fans). The only Indonesian hottest that I know is currently in Yogyakarta. -__-" What's the point of going to a concert alone? *forever alone* And my parents? I don't think I could get their approval since I haven't been to any concerts throughout my 24 years of living in this world (25 if you count in intrauterine life haha xD).

My ultimate Kpop bias has always been 2PM's Kim Junsu aka Jun.K! He's a great singer and musician. He composes and writes his own songs and he recently got a chance to release a solo album! Check out the video below.



And oh to my only one, don't worry my dear. I'm forever your no 1 fan. ;)

Ps. Oh this is so random lol~

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

I {heart} you

My Bachelor of Medicine Convocation Day
 Kepada ayah dan mama tersayang, selamat berangkat ke Tanah Suci Mekah malam ini. Mira doakan semoga amalan ayah & mama diterima Allah SWT dan mendapat haji mabrur. Selamat sampai dan pulang. Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan di sana. Amin~ Take care and I love you both, always~♥

Your beloved daughter,
Mira

Monday, October 3, 2011

Teddy and my feet


Bought this cute plush slippers back in Malaysia! Yes, I'm wearing Mr Bean's teddy on my feet! So comfy and I feel cute. Well, at least my feet do. Hahaha..

Ps. Yep, ini entri tanpa motif. Sekian. :p

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Sunday, October 2, 2011

Responsibility

I had the worst night shift in history evahhh~ Ended up alone all night. Was supposed to have the night shift at the emergency unit with this guy friend classmate of mine but he bailed on me! He left without words and it was before midnight! He came late and left early. Tell me, how the hell are you gonna be a good doctor if you keep acting this way? Skipping classes, coming to the hospital late, being rude to the senior doctors. Urgh.

And oh by the way, being a doctor doesn't mean you'll get more money. Yes, I know it's all about helping others but please, don't you think you should be more empathetic towards us as well? Instead of mocking us, try to understand the workload that we have everyday, will you?

Oh well, you'll never understand. You'll never will. I rest my case.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Premature ventricular contraction


You know who you are. Having to see the same people over and over again for 9 weeks is torturing. I know you feel the same way too. Come back to Jakarta soon please. IMYSM I could die~