I iz bz

Me in my oncall uniform for Paeds posting! ^__^

Yes, I haven't been updating you see. Paediatrics posting is starting to get hectic. Had my first night shift yesterday from 3.30pm till 6am the next day. The schedule for the next day started exactly at 7am with a morning report in which those who were on night shifts had to present one of the cases during their oncall. The day usually ended at 3pm and so the vicious cycyle starts all over again and again.

Mannn.. I didn't even sleep a wink last night. There were 6 old patients, 3 new patients. One case was brought to the resuscitation unit as a precaution measurement. She came with a sudden severe dyspnea and was diagnosed with heart failure ec chronic rheumatic heart disease with severe mitral regurgitation. Thrill was clearly seen and the murmur was loudly hurt. It was of grade 6, I think.. Since they were no medical students cuurrently posted at the Anesthesiology department, I had to monitor the patient cautiously throughout the night. Thank God she did not have to be resuscitated. :')

And so I went back to the hostel and slept till 7pm. (╥﹏╥) I need to get used to this since I'm gonna live like this for at least the next 30 years. O.o


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What the eff~

Ada siapa-siapa nak ke toilet, singgah la kat depan bilik hostel saya ye. Hahaha.. Baik punya toilet okay. Portable dowh.

Ps. Tiles toilet kena bongkah lagi sebab bocor ke bilik bawah. Damn. When will this ever end? (╥﹏╥)

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Azam raya

Memang saya akui, raya tahun ini adalah yang paling hambar. Tapi raya kali ini jugalah telah mengajar saya untuk menjadi seseorang yang lebih dewasa dan matang bukan saja dari segi fizikal (eh? ada kaitan ke) tetapi juga dari segi rohani, sosial, mental bla bla~Well, you get the point. Tak perlulah saya cerita sedetail-detailnya (pergh, penyalahgunaan bahasa!). Cukuplah saya seorang je yang tahu.

Yang penting, saya sudah berazam dengan sesorang yang saya sangat sayang untuk menjadi lebih baik. Nobody's perfect. Memang, semua pun nak bagitau kat saya tapi I don't need anyone to tell me that. Sometimes, imperfections make us perfect. Tapi janganlah melampau sangat pulak kan. Saya memang tersangatlah banyak flaws. Physically (okay, tu memang obvious)dan juga dari aspek attitude dan personality. I know sometimes I'm all that (emotional, egoistic, and selfish) but trust me, I've never meant to hurt anyone's feelings. Kadang-kadang, kita buat sesuatu yang salah tanpa kita sedari atau kita sedar tapi kita pura-pura tak ambil tahu. Paham tak?

I would never want to repeat the same mistakes over and over again. Saya tahu kesabaran memang ada batasnya juga. Manusia, mereka belajar dari kesilapan. Kesilapan menjadi bahan untuk mematangkan diri ini. Sometimes, I think I need to get a real hard slap in the face. A wake up call. Like, seriously!

Apa yang terjadi, biarlah. Buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih. Whatever in the past is over. Mari kita buka buku baru dan biarkan ia dihiasi dengan detik-detik indah. I promise you to become a better me. InsyaAllah. :)

Bondi beach, Sydney.

Met lebaran 1432H!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri semua.

Maaf Zahir Batin :)

Saya tak balik Malaysia untuk raya pun. Ini hanyalah rekaan semata-mata. Pre-raya photoshoot. T___T Banyak dapat duit raya? 

What I had today..

I cooked today! I can no longer stand the food here booyah~!

Sayur cap cay. Yeke? Muahaha.. Takpelah. Hentam je. :D

Ayam kurma bersama kentang

Pinggan makan saya

My meds! Of course la nie tak boleh tinggal. =p

Ps. He's coming back to Jakarta for Raya! Cant't wait! :)

Waving the white flag

I have finally surrendered and decided to go to the hospital today. The moment I woke up, my dyspnea didn't even get better at all. It was still the same as yesterday. Auscultated my chest and thank God, there was no wheezing. Well, not yet. I hope there would be none at all!! If there is, it indicates that my asthma has only moved to the next stage. T__T And since my ventolin inhaler has expired, I've got no choice other than going to the hospital ASAP. It's a good thing I'm still able to walk by myself. :') If only he was here, he would have come and accompanied me but he wasn't even here sobs. :'(

As usual, went to the see the GP and explained everything yadda yadda. The thing that I hate the most is waiting for the meds at the pharmacy. Since my meds are insured, the staff there need to call up the insurance company and make sure that my meds are covered by them. I'm sure this time around there will be no problem since there were no supplements in my prescription (I like to see what I'm prescribed with!). Little did I know that they DID NOT HAVE BLOODY STOCK FOR VENTOLIN INHALER. Okay, I hope I made that very clear. =P

I mean, come on! I do not want to go the government hospital here so that I could skip all the hassle of having to wait for hours. Hello, I know how it feels like. I've been working/studying in the biggest tertiary national hospital and waiting for the queue is no big joke! And why would I go there if I'm medically insured by JPA? I suppose MH Thamrin Hospital is quite a BIG PRIVATE hospital but somehow, they're not up to their standard. Gahhh. When I asked when will the inhaler be available and the staff there (with muka selamba badak) replied Monday. MONDAY? That's like 2 days away. I can't wait that long. I mean, that's my most crucial med and I need it ASAP. I'm dyspnic ya know. It HURTS you dopehead. /crying T_____T

Didn't want to argue any longer so I simply asked for the prescription so that I could buy it from the pharmacy outside. I even had to ask for it TWICE. These people, really, are you guys trying to give me a heart attack or what? T__T So yeah, it's settled. Bought it from a VERY SMALL pharmacy store for a price of Rp 111 000. There goes my money. Sobs.

My meds. 

I hate meds. I really do. Why the heck do I wanna be a doctor then? So that I could enjoy torturing others by giving them meds muahaha! No, I'm kidding okay. =p

S.I.C.K

Baru je start posting Paeds, dah start sakit. But honestly, it's not me that I'm worried about. It's the kids at the ward and polyclinic! Their immune system must have been lower than usual and me being around them would only predispose them to infection.

Okay, tipulah kalau tak risau kat diri sendiri kan. The thing is, upper respiratory infection has always been quite a strong sole factor triggering my asthma. Yes, I do get sick. Often. Urgh. I hate common cold. It comes with a full package of fever, cough, headache, congested nose, and yadda yadda. I could do nothing for the past few days. Been sleeping the moment I reached my hostel till the next morning. During the lectures and bedside teachings, I couldn't pay attention. It was such a torture, having to stand in the polyclinic/ward for hours. They even blasted the place with the lowest temperature of air-conditioning. T___T God bless me.

Now dah boleh rasa cam sesak sikit. Oh no. Found my ventolin inhaler but whoops, it's already expired. T____T Demmm demm demmm!

Ps. I hope I don't need to use the nebulizer.